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#423 : Somehow it's th end .

2009-03-15T20:36:00.002+08:00

hellos, everybody ! Hereby annouce this blog is officially closed down ;D I am not using blogger anymore . so yeah , dont bother to come here read th post . [: however , feel free to tag whenever you wan [: cause I'll still visit this blog sometime ;D

For those who really keen in to read my blog , you can ask for my new website ;D
Thanks reader , takecares ! ;D

#422 : it's enough of all .

2009-02-02T20:22:00.002+08:00

well , currently onyl i can read my blog [: I get so sick of everything , every particular thing . ! First of all , i wasnt angry nor sad . Yeah , i read through her post . and seriously , thanks for th great comments bahs . I'm not going to backstab or to gossip or to say you're a bitch . Like you say , is time to grow up . After so many thing happened , i learn alot too . As i move on in life , i will learn to be more mature .Thanks for telling th trust . but , i just dont like to hate people bahs . thanks for th sharing [: and yeah , is great to have a enermy like you . so you could say thing that i wasn't aware of ;D

you know , i laughed ! Cause , i read people blog , they always said thing like "stop backstabbing , get a life , i hate you , you bitch ...." and so on stuff . Then , it reminds me that i once said to people , hey , get a life man ! and so on stuff bahs . and i asked people to be mature . then i realised , people asking me to be mature & grow up too . so i find it real funny bahs . then told me , noone is perfect . each one of us , did make a mistake before too . and thing we do to other , we might not be aware of it . so is always great if what we did actually hurts another party and th party could kindly speak up . so we could change . of course , we must be willing to listen and reflect . yeah , i really learn alot from this [:

hmm , i guess there's nothing more to say le bahs ;D

#421 : weird case !

2009-02-01T12:54:00.003+08:00

well , 'some people' are just sick in mind perhaps ? they could just make up a stor and start accusing me say i say de lehs . nice right ? surely they aren't sick in mind ! when did i spread around about her , and when did i say he spread around about me ? totally no link ! maybe is just you jealous my life is getting better . oh please , if you're so free , then have a life . stop messing up people life can ?! nor going to fall into such a stupid trick . zzz

well , i am surely not going to be so weak , i wont fall so easily de . just wondering why you have to accuse me so much & make my life become so sucky ? i have my limits too . stop being way too much ! or else , i wont let you off too . dont think you have back-up all that i scare you . wanna spoilt my reputation , i dont give a damn . acbc .

#419 : Unbelievable .

2009-01-31T22:24:00.003+08:00

ohyeah . i'm back from ... yeah ! ;D today was a super sucker day ? no , i should said , a week has gone pass andand it wasnt a good week for me ? cause i spent most of my time daydreaming, moodswing , and so on stuff bahs . thanks god , i have lesser nightmare ;DD but , this week , just cannot make it bahs . cause just a few words spoilt my week ! -.- like thursday night and ytd afternoon & today afternoon . suck to th core ! blahs ! so i was rather moody bahs ..

went out to jurong point with parents . and that's how i spent my time in th late afternoon and night[: blahblahblah* ;D

I read from a magazine , it said , those people who tend to laugh & smile everyday will live 9 year or more longer than those who always glum their face . so i am going to laugh & smile even more isn't it ? and yes . is all this that happened that change me even more . i wont fall so easily anymore . Rumours going on & on , but i'm not going to give a damn le .

it seemed like i am starting to hate you le bahs . isn't this is what you wanted it from th very start ? thanks for th great scolding of me !

#418 : Cause only laughters gonna fills my world ! ;DD

2009-01-30T23:21:00.002+08:00

woohoo . wiatwait . let recalled what i had doen today yeah ! As usual , go back class do something in th morning ;D woohoo ! [: PE ;D runrunrun ! first time i chiong th school for 1 completed round uhs ?! normally i round even 1 round also slowslow de . but i seemed to speed today uhs ? so ended up , so tiring ! 2 more round , and i am dead ! )= woohoo . then 2 period chemistry . what i did lehs ? i eat in class ;D hungryhungry ! =x it seemed rather boring ? i thought of playing handphone game , but it gonna bored me more ! zzz so yeah , i fallen asleep ;D skipskipskip* woohoo , i gonna fail Amath test ! [: cause i forgotten all th formula and methods ! [: nice one mingfen , keep it up ! ;D

waitwaitwait for th girls to end their whatever thingy [: way to makan;D hahahs . blahblahblah ! ;D woohoo , *something* happened ! almost spoilt my day man ! lucky, i have shengmei with me ;D bought lots of chocolate & it cost me $7 )= back to class . turn on my class light , and ahem ! shengmei you know hor ? laugh* hahahs ! th switch got smoke & fire coming out . then shengmei missed th show man . so i off then on again let her see . then she said i very braave lehs . cus if it turn out to be her th one switching on , she will have already scream and run away le .hahahs ! laughlaughlaugh* ! yeah , study in class ? no , i ended up , sleeping in th class . hahas . then shengmei suddenly asked me math qns , i kena shock luhs ! )= hahas. way down concourse slack awhile . then mr farizal came to talk to us . and he went off to run with some guys . and here we go home ;D

oh , shengmei , your lame stun , never stop me from laughing uhs ! ;D hahahs ! jump more uhs ! ;D haha .

home sweet home . and out to lot 1 for dinner .

#417 : I finally understood .

2009-01-29T21:21:00.002+08:00

well , fully recommended th show " jia you xi shi" . Made me laughed throughout th show non-stop and i just forget all th problem that moment of time[ ;

today , yeah afterschool ! ;D hahas . gaambling at my home . lost money [: $20 gone , and gone forever [: hahas ! it's pretty okay yeah ! cause it doesn't matters anymore . having so much money is just nothing . I will take it as a donation ? ;D cause when you lost money , you tend to feel sad , but stop and think , other who win are happy . it worth it anyway ;D

i love th windy places ;D and yes , i finally get it . I am just nothing . Thanks for that super harsh words , cause it change my life . yes ! th power of your word . I wondered what i will do , cause everything is meaningless . I just lost eveything , i lost my life too . So i wondered , what for continue to study ? I dont want to move on anymore . My future is ruin and ruin forever . I.. I just hate myself so much . There isn't a way to stop anymore . cause you make me fully understood . and i deserved th everything [;

#416 : Xin xiang shi chen [:

2009-01-27T13:00:00.002+08:00

Happy NU Year to everyone [:

ohyesyes , I'm back ! ;D seriously , I dont feel like coming back anymore . As I really love staying at th sea side , listening to th waves & is so windy luhs . It made me forget everything and felt so relaxing . Its seemed like a great holiday over there bahs , to relax myself ;D Is a way to escape from reality too . Over there , I dont contact anyone , and I dont know what happen to th world outside too . It's like a dreamland bahs . And , I can dont go school , just wait and wait for a particular msg then i come back ? hahhas ! but , it is th only way to start a new life too . Ha's i better stop here . Let's start some summary ?

Satursday , 240109 , Day 1 .
woke up at 7am ? Get prepared for everything , went out to mac with sis for breakfast ! ;D Chiong-ed home and last check if i had forgotten to bring any stuff not . yeah , about 9+ took cab to chnagi village [: waited for boat to come & here we departed from singapore [: rest in th boat for awhile and then went out of th boat , where i could stand over there to enjoy th beautiful scene and th breezing wind [: and it's so windy that my hair gone so messy luhs ! zz Reached malaysia custom , wow ! Nice renovation luhs , it's like so clean and new [: th feeling is shiok of course . Then cab to "si wan tao" ;D it took about 2hour from my home back to kampour uhs . yeah , first time i dont hide behide sis le lehs ! yeah , I managed to remember which relative call waht name [: maybe is because when i reached there only 1 relatives reached nia bahs . hahas . hungryhungryhungry . so makan-makan-makan ! ;D went to jalan jalan ;D cycle cycle . shopshop . and relax ? hahahs ! More and more came back and th house was full of joy & laughter ;D yeah , joshua korkor , julia jiejie & her future husband , joe came back for awhile . Then joshua bought firework uhs ! Tell you guys something , it's a 'wonderful' experience uhs ? I mean you know th firework almost kill people life !?! you know why ? cause th quality totally suck ? th person who made this firework surely make something wrong luhs . th firework supposed to shoot th front direction , yet it can u-turn and hit th house . Th firework really so near to us . Never have this experience before . so scarly bahs ! but quite fun ;D

Sunday , 250109 , Day 2 :D
couldnt sleep well !!! zzzz thought of waking up at 6am to see sunrise but lazy ? so woke up at 8+ , kinda early man ! makan and so on . spent most of my time at th bridge which is located at th sea side . went to th beach to write word on th sand [: took alot of photos ;D and yeah , watch tv . play pokercard and so on . steamboat for th dinner [: hahas, imagine 3 table for 2 round in order for all to eat ? hahas , can see got alot of ppl right ? somemore many relatives not going in yet . th number of ppl is increasing each year with so many ppl marrying [: soon , 10years later , my turn ;D hahahas ! LOL slept at 1+?

Monday , 260109 , Day 3 [:
slept till 9+ then wake up . bathe , change to new clothing , sit and wait for angbao to come ;D awhile later went to 4 or 5 temples to pray ;D back and wait for angbao again . it's so boring uhs , so went to sleep [: woke up , walk around th house , watch tv and makan . spent my late afternoon at seaside ;D hahas , actually , this year , i dont even bother to open th angbao bahs . expected it to be in RM . and th money will be little too . so wait till th last day of cny then open bahs ;D woohoo , night life [: BBQ !! photo taking ! ;D it's so fun luhs !

Tuesday , 270109 , Day 4 )=
Time to go back singapore )= Dont bear leaving there as i miss going to th sae side to enjoy luhs !! D; but , no chioce ! get prepared stuff and way back home ;D reached home at about 10.30 am ;D homework haven do uhs , jialat ! zz no is , goodluck to me uhs ! hhahas . it's going 2pm now . while going to dont know whose house later ? GAMBLING !!!! ;DDDDDD hahahs

photo shall be post soon ;D
enjoy [:

#415 : Happy advance CNY [:

2009-01-23T20:51:00.002+08:00

woohoo , it was a great day bahs ? started off with PE [: ran outside school for about 3km ? well , it was like so great luhs ! and i rarely stop ! [: goodjob mingfen [: and those guy are singing cny song ! so funny but they seemed enjoying so much . hahahs . then captain ball ;D it was a great game bahs ;D 2 period chem in lab kill th time [: hahas ! then reccess and suntan ? lols , th mr yong put us all under th sun for so long , i gonna be cook man ! zzz then proccess to th hall [: th concert indeed so boring ! but is a great performers somehow bahs ?

after school went to lot 1 with jinxiu they all . and yeah , walked around to haunt for yi jing cny clothings . but ended up i think she got buy 1 bahs ? home sweet home at 5? swept th floor [: see , so obedient right ? good girl man ! ;D bathe , pack bag , sleep for 2 hour ![ : i am sososo tired bahs ! )= woke up , packed bag again ! hahas , i keep packing uhs . cus i dont know what to wear as well as i dont know what to bring too . finally , finally , got to eat 'dinner' at 8+ !! i was like starve to death man . and all i got to eat is dumpling ! zzz surely still hungry de luhs .

yeah , off i go tmr [: shiok luhs ! but th angbao all in rm , which is no fun ! )= hahas . afterall it gonne be a nice weekends [:

-If it was given a chance to replace what we've did wrong in th previous decision , isn't it great enough ?
- and , th moment we make a decision , we'll never regret , because we think we're always right for th decison we made . If we know we gonna regret , then i guess we wouldnt have make that decision right ?
- After sometimes , we regretted ? and most of us will try to get back we want . so we will try & try . even if we failed , we are not going to regret anymore cus we have give in our best shot . isn't it ?

i guess that is life bahs . so , we shouldnt be too sad if we cant get back what we wanted it to be ..
so yeah , smile on ! [:

happy cny in advance ;D gong xi fa cai [:

#414 : cause it wasn't th same anymore ..

2009-01-22T20:18:00.002+08:00

everything was alright today yeah ? Is just way too tired and couldnt understand what teacher was talking about -.- ohyeah , here come th new student , ....... , hahas , couldnt spell his name man ! sorry ? hhaha !

after school ! ;D jiaying borrowed balls from mr siao and so we're able to play volleyball ;D butbut , actually before we're able to play , we already dont feel like playing . cus everywhere got ppl uhs ! zz hahas , while waited for marilyn they all to come , and we started playing ;D hahas . played basketball & volleyball tgt [: while , half-way through , shengmei & my drinks got missing ? wherby we put tgt with jiaying drink too . but hers dont go missing. weird ? real weird man ! hahahs ! ohyeah , shengmei my lesb partner uhs ! ;D hahahs ! LOL ! hmm , is great playing with soccer boys ? cus they use their head to pass us back th ball . hahas . there's how i know a soccer boy from 3a2 ? lols . left school at about 6.30pm ?

went to plaza to have dinner with shengmei [: but she dont eat de uhs ! zzzz and here , my $50 for th week gone ! zzz no more money le uhs . and so i got to use my own money to makan le . hahas . but i really spent alot on eating this week uhs . butbut , when i am going to be fatter ?? It seemed more like i am slimming down uhs ? zzzz

supposed to go jurong point now ? but , lazy bahs . so forget it ;D

tmr should be th last post before i go malaysia for cny bahs ? hahas , i guess , i haven pack finished my barang barang*[ did i spell wrong ?] uhs ! should be home earlier tml bahss ? so i could do my own thing first ;D ha's it gonna be fun , isn't it [:

cause , it wasn't th same anymore .

#413 : waiting on lively [:

2009-01-21T20:53:00.002+08:00

so rare man ! last night went out to limbang to buy mac for supper uhs ! Suppposed i should sleep like a pig le uhs ? cus sososo tired !

yeah , went to class to did 'usual thingy' [: slackslackslack (: assemble .
ha's i am real talketive today too ? too tired & hungry le bahs ;D and amath really kills me luhs . i cant understand 'surbs !' zzzzz got to work hard ;D

afterschool , did some hmwk and yeah wanna play some sport but is all book ? netball court , GB . basketball court , ppl playing . parade square , some ppl playing soccer . field , softballer . erms , seemed liek everywhere got ppl uhs . so went to slack around with jiaying & shengmei instead . went out to buy burger back school eat . slacked till about 6.30pm . way to limbang eat dinner ? hahahs , really eat alot today uhs ? reached home about 8 ?

ha's seemed like i no energy to chiong hmwk le bahs ? forget it !

SMILE on ;D

#412 : Only if you believe you can do it .

2009-01-20T20:14:00.003+08:00

yesterday , monday , 19 January 09 ;D
while , coudlnt really rmb what happened le . hahahas . got sstm ma . okay uhs , can rmb , hmm , after school ! ;D yeah , shengmei accompany me go see ms jaz . hmm , it's like we chit-chatted for more than an hours uhs ! okay , then after that , went to walk around th school , slack until 6+ decided to cab home . As i totally have no mood to walk th path home man ! D; and so , th cab cost me almost $9 -.- peak hour ! zzz it's NO FUN MAN ! how i wish when i took th cab , th meter start from $0.00 ! ;D how great uhs [: but , fat hope ! hahahs

then spent th night , watching tv and together with sis , ride bic to go look for mum , delivered her yakult to her [: it heavy okay ! 2o pkts ! -.- but is real great cycling luhs . th wind is so shiok ! [: that's , end my day [:

Today , tuesday , 20 january 09 [:
yeah ! 18 days ! nice number uhs ? ;D chiong hmwk in th very very early morning uhs ! zzz then yeah , as usual did some 'meaningless' stuff . but is always so meaningful to me [: assemble . then blahblahblah* health check up ! oh thanks so much ! [: that's how i missed my chemistry lesson & th very beginning of english lesson ;D woohoo , eveythign goes on smooth ? [: blahblahblah* DISMISSAL ! * ;DDDDD ha's , i really dont like going home after school no matter how tired i am le bahs[: played volleyball with th girls , and then , "monkey" ? , basketball & captain ball ! ;D yeah , nice one yijing , jinxiu & angie's brother [: woohoo , we won th match against angie , jiaying , marlyn & shengmei ;D hahahs ! end off by running 1 round around th shcool ;D

woohoo , seemed like my life had changed le bahs ? As you know , I hate staying back after school ! and i always find way to go home as early as possible . and that explained why i always took cab home too ;D but , rmb there's one time i said i will change and live my life more differently ? yeah , i did it ! ;D I no longer have afternoon nap , and now is having fun in th afternoon ! [: and , i realised , everytime when a person fall , so long as th person have th courage to stand up again , he/she will surely become stronger too [: and i am gonna be stronger after this right ? hopefully ? hahas . but , i guess i change alot ? from th mingfen i used to know , th one that is real lazy , not independent , always emo , and do silly thing to hurt myself to th new mingfen i had never know ? ;DDDD Many things did happen to me , and yeah , i think i really went through all . And i could see myself no longer doing silly stuff [oh , that's real great ! ] , more independent , not so slack le [though i admit i still that slacker man ! >< ] . okay lah , i will change more! i said le , make 2009 a good start and a good year , i will always remind myself about this . About being happy lehs , i will try my best of course . Is better to smile & laughs around then having a glum face always right ?

On my way home today , suddenly , i could think so well ? I got an answer perhaps ? yeah , i will try to let go of 'you' but rmb , i didnt say i will forget . cus i know it's gonna be hard to forget so might as well rmb it ? [: andand , if it's your , it will be back to you one day . I really believe it okay ! and so , so long as i know th feeling never fade, it no longer matter when you're gonna be back . 1 year ? 2 year ? 10years ? forever ? its really dont matter le bahs ? th law never say loving a person is wrong . so even you no longer feel th same , i guess , it no longer matter [: if we're fated to be tgt , one day out there , we will know [: and, is always great seeing your laughter ;D

lastly , i shall end this post by making 2 promises ? 1st , this cny , i cannot be sad uhs ! [oh please , dont ! ] i must enjoy th fun in malaysia uhs ;D avoid thinking so much of course[ : 2nd , learn to survive th night lively & happily . no more stress , no more tears , no more sadness . ! i am going to learn to be independent ! even if it hurts , i still got to move on with lives and be happy ! ;D yeah , so logn as you believe you can , you surely will make it one day ! so , JIAYOU MINGFEN ;DDDDD

woah , so rare man ! i got so hyper ? hmm , positive thinking perhaps ?

#411 : I am not as strong as you had thought .

2009-01-18T19:26:00.002+08:00

well , it's a sunday yeah ? And i got one word to describe for th day "BORED !" went out to limbang for lunch then went out to lot 1 for dinner . that's is ? Do some hmwk & watch tv for th whole day ? It's totally suck luhs . As , i am way too free , that make me cant stop thinking of 'something' . so , my mood got affected too D:

It's th 16th day already, practically everymoment been thinking of you day & night . I wondered do you still feel th same for me ? And I guess , everything had changed pretty lots just in a short while . well , I finally understand that , aday , 24hours , many thing really can happened . All we need is just a min to kill a person . Or a short moment to commit sucide . So , much less to say a short moment to have th feeling fade away . I was thinking , what you doing every moment . And , in my mind , you just keep appearing and .... well . i shall post at another blog bahs . dont feel like sying so much here ..

yeah , CNY is around th corner ! ;D so must be happy luhs . of course , i am so excited luhs ! for th first time i have th urge to go back malaysia uhs ! [: cus i know this year , it gonna be fun ! [: though still th same , cant put firework but maybe got miracle ? hahas , butbut , shiage'korkor going in lehs ! [: ha's , planning to have some family bonding yeah ! ;D play volleyball ! [: shiok right ? and , i actually plan to help up in th kitchen this year ;D so i could learn some skill too . hahas , i believe this year it gonna be so much different . As in , so many relative going back kampong . then th house will be floood uhs ! ;D full of laughter i believe ;D ha's i haven pack my clothing uhs ! whereby , i going in next satursday and be back by tuesday bahs [: and pon school on wed ? hahahs .

#410 : Life is unpredictable .

2009-01-17T22:06:00.004+08:00

well , start off with photos [: hahas . taken outside grandma house and coffeeshop today [: yeah , it was a soso day yeah [: woke up feeling extreme tired ! try doing hmwk yet didnt mange to do even a single qns . so clean my room , and so on [: went out to grandma house at about 5.30pm [: makan & so on . after that go shengsiong buy newyear goods & stuff [: woohoo , spent $200 ! nice right ? that's all for th day ? ;D

#409 : I need you understand D;

2009-01-16T23:19:00.002+08:00

whole day activity ! zzz well , start off th day PE [: ha's i work really hard for it ya ! Is th first time i ran 3 round th school without walking so much man . infact , i didnt really stop at all [: then went hall for some exercise , ha's i do more than what is told man ! ;D lalas , then boring lesson ;D

after school , went to subway makan . then teached shengmei her math , about 2+ went home ., ohyeah , garden plaza ! 2 small kid play catches around me & SM luhs . somemore behide us do weird faces . hahas , real cute luhs [: then , got shi xin hui fans people . he started waiting from about 2pm ? when th thingy should be 7pm start ! siao right ? then he asked us if we got her album . zzz !

bathed & chiong out to look for mummy . Went down bugis , to my uncle shop . take some thingy & went to walk around .waited for sis , then bought some clothing from bugis streets again . $50 gone =x shouldnt go out luhs ? blahblahblah . went lot 1 makan again and home sweet home .

helped sis dye hair for about an hour and here i am , watching tv too [:
damn tired today man ! zzz

#408 : I know i should leave .

2009-01-15T20:23:00.002+08:00

blahblahblah , everything was usual .
After school , slacked in school awhile then cabbed to limbang with shengmei , jiaying , jinxiu & crystal . buy pasta sauce and pasta home . woohoo , Cheft Sia cook for everyone today [: yummy right ? mingfen cook de ma ! maisiaosiao ! got standard one hor ! anyway , thanks jiaying for th help up in kitcher too ;D

then they play keyboards and so on . went down play volleyball & badminton ! shiok ar ! [: but got this "GL" kia keep purposely cycle into th court and disturb us ! zzz

hmm , that's all .

#407 : th power of silence .

2009-01-14T19:29:00.003+08:00

woke up earlier today ! ;D so yeah , went to school earlier . well , blahblahblah! Thanks god , there is shengmei & jaiying around , if not i wonder what will happen to me . hmm , chinese class , that shengthong ar , keep disturb me . butbut , i sincerely thanks him for automatic helping me redo my work . As , i wans't in a good mood , i draw and vandalism that paper . xiexie ni uhs ! ;D nothing much ? ohyeah , math lesson ! get scolded from mrs lim , saying me talketive ! woah , seemed 57890678years since teacher last said i talketive . so today is so rare okay ! but weili & amanda good lor , talk so much , yet teacher cant see ! so heng luhs ! [: hahas .

After school, together with shengmei & jiaying went concourse chiong hmwk [: uhs , haven finished though . >< well , play volleyball after that ! ;D hahas ! after that play badminton . so shiok uhs ! [: butbut , i wanna play basketball more ! zzz neverminds . hmm , then went to plaza for dinner [: i even ate fruits okay ! dont playplay ! i am gonna be fat & healthy soon [: muhahahhas !

okay uhs , have plan for everyday le bahs ? so is a great time , kill time kill time kill time !! ;D

#406 : Nothing gurantees lifelong happiness .

2009-01-13T18:45:00.002+08:00

SUCK !* It is totally suck can ? Its just isn't my day alright ? Once woke up , already felt that kind of moody mood ! What else can I do man ? Feeling sososo tired and so emotional ? Well , th song that plays on my way to school doesn't seemed to be right too ? As in , I wasn't in th mood for any hyper song nor any 'dead' song ! zz okayokay , stopstopstop ! * Lucky school was alright for me today bahs ? I seemed to eat damn lots ? well done man ?~~ After school , went hall for national antheme . Repeated 4 time zzz . wth luhs !? Headed to plaza with crystal after that . slacked at library , read my storybook and some cooking method and so on stuff . went to print my monkey(: photo ;D [so is in my room wall now ! ;D] walked around and headed home at about 5 ? well , thought of going back to school actually . But lazy ? ehs , i should have go back luhs . now feeling like regretted man ! zzz

ha's , i come out with a plan ? I dont want to have afternoon nap anymore ! ;D which mean , i will tired till siao ! However , like this i will have more time to spend aday luhs ! [: Plan to use those time wisely now ;D andand hopefully it starts tml ! ;D cheer ! *

oh , nicholas going oversea for his car racing le !
so , 'yi lu soon feng' { did i spent wrong ?} ;x
and , best wishes to you ! ;D
Must win your race hor , smile ! ;D

#405 : If there is still th chemistry in between us .

2009-01-12T17:24:00.002+08:00

Life is a experiment for you try in order to know .

Alright , yesterday night helped mama dyed hair for about ah hour . expert okay , dont playplay ! ;D but my hand also kena th colour , nice one man ! ;D couldnt sleep till 12+ ;D

A day to start off again , woohoo ! ;D candy for morning is always great ? hahas ! [: Everything went on smoothly ? well , doze off in class during contact time , th last period yeah ! ;D woohoo , went around in school and so on . 3.30pm , meet ms jaz ;D topic on BGR ? hmm , okok bahs . everything quite alright . still got hmwk de hor ! On anger mangement bahs ? ;D went to plaza with jiaying later on . and that end my day ;D

home sweet home , ohyeah . Feeling sososo sleepy & tired man ! but , is just 5.31pm now . I wanna wait him at playground again , can i ? hahas . forget it , he wont turn up anyway . zzzz

yeah ! I wanna face up my very own life ! ;D It start today ! [: No matter is impossible if you're willing to give it a try . I wanna make my life different and I dont wanna waste time any longer le [: butbut , still waiting of course [:

Its said , an apple a day , keep th doctor away .
and for me , its said " a smile a day , brighten other day ;D" !
woohoo , i will be who i am , and i will learn to be happier each and everyday [:
If i can do it , i believe others out there can do it too ;D
it's life man , live it up lively , not deadly ! [:

#404 : Keep th Faith .

2009-01-11T12:35:00.002+08:00

woohoo , woke up at 8 ? then rotted on bed till 10am ;D eat breakfast , watch tv and bath ;D went out to wet market with mama to buy food for streamboat today [; haahs , it's so rare man ! Been many years since i last went to wet market le ;D woohoo [:

well , dont know why , felt damn so sleepy now luhs ! It's just 12.38pm now ! sososo early yet i already sososo sleepy le . zzzz okay uhs , shall do abitt revision later ? andand start reading my "p.s i love you " story book ? hahas . ohyeah , 1 thingy , should i have tuition ? I am damn lazy alright !

tml gonna be a longlonglong day for me man ?

After school is already 3.30pm ? Then stayed back to waste time on national anthem . After that meet up ms jaz talk rubbish . hmm , I guess by then i reached ome was about 5+ le bahs . Yawn*

yeah , th ninth day le , stillstillstill waiting ;D

I still believe-Mariah Carey
U look in my eyes.
And I get emotional.
Inside.
I know it's crazy.
But U still can touch my heart.
And after all this time.
U'd think that I.
I wouldn't feel the same.
But time melts into nothing.
And nothing's changed.
I still believe.
Someday U & me.
Will find ourselves.
In love again.
I had a dream.
Each day of my life.
I'm filled with all the joy.
I could find.
U know that
I am not the desparate type.
If there's one spark of hope.
Left in my grasp.
I hold it with both hands.
It's worth the risk of burning.
To have a second chance.
No,no no no no no.
I need U baby.
I still believe that we can be together.
(Haaoo)
If we believe that true love.
Never has 2 end.
Then we must know that we will love again.

Oh baby yeah.
U & me.
(Oh baby I do)Some day U & me.
(Just give me one more try).
I had a dream(I miss Ur love).
I-I still believe(yeah I still believe).

#403 : Shopping can distress ? ;D

2009-01-10T21:10:00.002+08:00

woohoo , woke up at 8am ? uhs , it seemed rather early , so continue sleep till 11+ . Got woke up by nightmare in th early morning ? nice one man ! okok , prepared , makan and went out with sis to lot 1 first . Took passport photo , ohmindgosh , really cant make it man ! I look so dead , is like my funeral photos instead ! touchwood* well , then meet up sis's friend , fifi . headed down bugis ! [: went to wet market for lunch and went to workplace take my 2day salary ! $80 ;D muhahahahs ! ;D shopshopshop ! ;D bought 5t-shirt , 1vest & 1 skirt . hmm , is hard to see me buy skirt uhs , and even hard to see me wear skirt man ! hahahs ! for cny bahs ;D spent a total of $70 on clothings excluding meals man ! went out from 1.30pm to 8.30 pm ? nice one ! wholeday shop ? zzz

hahas , well , in th morning whole body aches uhs . due to ytd pe bahs . too long never exercise le . today still walk & walk . power bahs ? [:

yeah , today stay farfarfar away from books , and shall watch tv later bahs [: woohoo , so relaxing man ! ;D

smile [:

#402 : Being happy is th key for th day ;D

2009-01-09T21:49:00.002+08:00

yeah , I am still as slim as before , clapclaps* I know someone out there might kill me man ! okay luhs , i got become fatter abit ? From 35kg to 37.8kg ? oh , i got an aim , to gain weight to 40-45kg [; Faster gain weight lehs ! zzz Is sososo easy for me to lose weight whenever i want , but to gain is like ~~~! hahas . ohyes , i grow taller by 1cm ? 161 cm ! ;D what a nice height ? not short not tall , just nice man ! ;D but 162cm would be nicer ? [;

ohyesyes , is great to see you so happy everyday man ! ;D

hahas , everything was same same ? pretty fine bahs ? Is just , I abit sotsot le [: got so hyper just in a moment [;

headed home after schcool , then blahblahblah ! ;D

ohyes , I finished all my homework in one shot ? nice one mingfen ! First time bahs ? So i am just left with 1 assignment which i dont know how to do , but can try bahss ? The rest , done ? woohoo , just spent my day tmr read " P.s i love you " ? Heard that it's a nice story man ! ;D but , th thickness of th book make nme wonder how longer will i finished it man ! 1 year ? hahas , if i can finished within a month is such a bigbigbig miracle uhs ! ;D that's all ?

If only there isn't a mistake made ,

then it would be 2 month today at 10.50pm .

#401 : I know le ;D

2009-01-08T20:54:00.002+08:00

yeahyeah , skip everything and go to th main point yeah ! ;D

Tears of touched * ;D

I wanna sincerely thanks Jessica Low JW ;D

thanks for th great help luhs , i dont know how am i going to thanks you ,

butt i am sososo touched seriously . thanks so much ;D

Followed by ,

Poh Wei Li ,

thanks for helping me all this while man , and sorry to trouble you so much ! )=

sorry & thanks alot ;D

of course ,

I still wanna thanks kenneth & leon ;D

&& , jeanneth & jiaying .

thanks for listening my rubbish & so all stuff man ! ;D

you know , is just a simple msg from 'you' can change me so much ;D

and i know th answer le bahs ?

I will get a life & move on happily ; study hard and stop wasting time ;D

butbut , I'll continue waiting in a very different way le ..

SMILE ;D

#400 : Say you'll be mine ? D;

2009-01-07T19:13:00.002+08:00

yeah , went to walk walk last night ;D after more or less felt better le bahs ? well , thanks nic for those words alright . Thansk for reminding me that i promised myself to start a good year and to be happier . i will rmb de ;D

morning was always kinda sucky ? was sick uhs ! must be ytd too windy outside le . that ms toh , caught my ear stick and my side hair , wth ?! somemore she said next time she will cut it off ? zzz RECESS ! [: almost fainted due to some thing uhs ? jialat zz . ohyes , became slightly hyper after reccess bahs . lunch and back to class . hahasd , i know i was crazy after that ;D nan de so hyper okay !? :D went to bp library with jiaying and home sweet home ! [:

well , plan to camp at playground later again ? this time round must be jacket to prevent getting any further sick uhs ! ;D you know , waiting became a thing that i feel like doing everyday [:

#399 : If all needs is just guts .

2009-01-06T19:51:00.002+08:00

woohoo , been so tired yeah ! this few day couldnt sleep well . keep wake up & mind couldnt stop running uhs ! feeling unwell le bahs ? going to have fever ? & i am losing weight le ? cause i couldnt eat as much i wanted . lost appetite even though i am hungry . sigh * worst come to worst , i am losing interest in so many thing , slowly life too ? zzz

everything was kinda fine in school bahs ? is just i dont understand what is being taught ? hahas . slowly , i will give up and fail everything [: nice ma ? hahhas! well , lallalas ~! i dont know what to say le ..

it's th forth day , i will continue waiting ...

#398 : You heart will neve be back ..

2009-01-05T16:19:00.002+08:00

Started th day carrying a bagpack to school with my dearest baby'monkey at th bag ;D Wasn't use to cary bagpack as i had been using shoulder bag for 3 years le . Reached school , thanks shengmei & jiaying for accompany me to class to put all my stuff under th desk . Assemble for morning assembly .. thought class counseller didnt come today , so we wont be having amath ? [: but it was a shock to see her stepping in th class . well , amath ! ohmindgosh , i just couldnt even know how to do th simultaneous equation ! zzz even my partner , jason pak ? also dont know how to do . thanks shi ting for her answer yeah ! ;D 3rd period , chemistry , almost bored me to death ! how to study without notes lehs ? had pir firstfirstfirst test for th years man ! Is just th second day , oh pls ! zz Englsih ! came a AHEM* size person . she kinda f**k up luhs ! dont really like her bahs . oh, got her lesson tmr , which mean , i am gonna bring so much stuff yeah ? skip my reccess ;D chinese ! hahas , i admit i aam a bigbigbig noobs for chinese . so was being transfer to 3e4 which is chinese class 3 ? andand , is for those just pass or fail . zzz butbut , i quite like it bahs . as , mr wong is th teacher ;D though th lesson seemed to be real bored but i was paying attention ? nice topic yeah ! well , mr wong was damn disappointed bahs . as he felt he was a failure to teach us till this way . hahas , butbut , i know he'ss a great teacher and he pull up my markss [: so he's not a failure okay ! mr wong , cheer up ! ;D andand , shengthong , i am not emoing pls ! zzzz everything go smoothes ? lunch and assembly . stayed back sing national anthem and way down plaza . was waiting for xueli to take back some stuff . then saw ahem * all i could do is pretend never saw baahs ? )=

well , It seemed like i dont like going home le bahs ? It brought me teaars and reminds me of th memories .. so went to walk around those places we once went . well , i laughed at myself for th mistake i made once again ..

wo hen xiang yao ta .

#397 : Let time heals everything bahs ..

2009-01-04T20:42:00.002+08:00

well , i created another blog link . And that's is for my real feeling to be reveal ;D hahas . This blog supposed to be a happy one of course . If not where can call th amazingsmile lehs ? ;D However , those who wanna read my another blog , can ask me th url yeah ;D

Tagged reply :
Xiao.lance : hahas . seeya .
Jingxiang : link you asap .
Htr94 : did i drag you in ? if so , i am real sorry ! )=
xiao.lance : my wishes are not th one you refering yeah ;D so it might never come true .
YIJING : hahas , thanks . well , you too cheer up man ! [: so think so much le . ;D
Miaoyu : hihi [:
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#396 : I'm waiting for you , waiting for you ...

2009-01-04T13:36:00.002+08:00

while , it seemed like I couldnt let go ? ehs , well , I am not emoing yeah . Is just full of regrets . zzzz .

last night , do quite alot stuff ? then thought of folding th birdbird , i mean th "swar " {seemed like i got bigbigbig spelling mistake ?} well , cus ppl say folding that wishes will come true ? so every birdbird i folded , there is word in it . hahas , i know people gonna scold me for my sillyness right ? lalalas~

tmr got test le , wth ? It's gonna bored to death . schoool hour till 3.30pm is no fun ! =lO butbut , i hope tmr no ACT then can go home at 2.30 ? what a boring one . 1hour of assembly ? or CT ? hais .. i would rather sleep man ! [: hope th class no longer so quiet pls! it's getting so bored ! zzz

oh , wish me goodluck for something ? ahhas !

#395 : Baby , I'm sorry .

2009-01-03T20:42:00.002+08:00

Baby , i wants you back .

Does it look familiar to you ?

well , woke up by a real disppointed msg bahs . And so i woke up at about 9am today . SOund really early for me uhs ! Do some stuff , asked leon if he interested to go stadium run with me ;D Thanks so much for his accompany bahs . If he didnt accompany me , I wondered , I had already gone mad ><>

Reached home , play psp , attached to speaker and blast ! Sound like arcade luhs , so shiok ! [: Bathed and went out with family . Way down causewaypoint . andand , there's a flashback of certain thing bahs . sigh* bought a bagpack at last ! ;D ohyesyes , I do know my face look so moody and I am like someone who've lost th soul . sigh* Just let me be moody for th day bahs . I will start tmr a better one . smile ?

well , let post some songs lyrics which I wanna say to somebody ...

Goodbye my lover by James Blunt .

You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.

Goodbye my lover.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit
it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.

aviation - you were my everything,
this goes out to someone that was
once the most important person in my life
i didn't realize it at the time
i can't forgive myself for the way i treated you so
i don't really expect you to either
it's just... i don't even know
just listen...

you're the one that i want, the one that i need
the one that i gotta have just to succeed
when i first saw you, i knew it was real
i'm sorry about the pain i made you feel
that wasn't me; let me show you the way
i looked for the sun, but it's raining today
i remember when i first looked into your eyes
it was like god was there, heaven in the skies
i wore a disguise 'cause i didn't want to get hurt
but i didn't know i made everything worse
you told me we were crazy in love
but you didn't care when push came to shove
if you loved me as much as you said you did
then you wouldn't have hurt me like i ain't shit
now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
i loved you with my heart, really and truly

i guess you forgot about the times that we shared
when i would run my fingers through your hair
late nights, just holding you in my arms
i don't know how i could do you so wrong
i really wanna show you i really need to hold you
i really wanna know you like no one could else know you
you're number one, always in my heart
and now i can't believe that our love is torn apart
refrain:i need you and
i miss you and
i want you and
i love you 'cause
i wanna hold you,
i wanna kiss you
you were my everything
and i really miss you (2x)

i knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man
and then sit and laugh as you're holding his hand
the thought of that just shatters my heart
it breaks in my soul and it tears me apart
at times we was off i was scared to show you
now i wanna hold you until i can't hold you
without you, everything seems strange
your name is forever planted in my brain
damn it, i'm insane,
take away the pain
take away the hurt
baby, we can make it work
what about when you
looked into my eyes
told me you loved me
as you would hugged me
i guess everything you said was a lie
i think about it, it brings tears to my eyes
now i'm not even a thought in your mind
i can see clearly, my love is not blind

i just wish everything could have turned out differently
i had a special feeling about you
i thought maybe you did too
you would understand, but...
no matter what, you'll always be in my heart
you'll always be my baby
our first day, it seemed so magical
i remember all the time that i had with you
remember when you first came to my house?
you looked like an angel wearing that blouse

we hit it off, i knew it was real
but now i can't take all the pain that i feel
reach in your heart, i know i'm still there
i don't wanna hear that you no longer care
remember the times? remember when we kissed?
i didn't think you would ever do me like this
i didn't think you'd wanna see me depressed
i thought you'd be there for me, this i confess
you said you were my best friend, was that a lie?
now i'm nothing to you, you're with another guy
i tried, i tried, i tried, and i'm trying
now on the inside it feels like i'm dying

the only thing i want is for you to be happy
whether it be with me, or without me
i just want you to be happy

Avril Lavigne-When Youre Gone
I always needed time on my own
I never thought
Id need you there when I cried

And the days feel like years
when Im alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When youre gone
The pieces of my heart
are missing you
When youre gone
The face I came to know
is missing too
When youre gone
The words I need to hear
to always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you

I never felt this way before
Everything that I do
reminds me of you

And the clothes you left
are lyin on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much
I need you right now?

When youre gone
The pieces of my heart
are missing you
When youre gone
The face I came to know
is missing too
When youre gone
The words I need to hear
to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

We were meant for each other
I keep forever
I know we were

All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe
I need to feel you here with me
Yeah

When youre gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When youre gone
The face I came to know
is missing too
When youre gone
The words I need to hear
to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

ohyes , baby i know i did you wrong , there isn't a way to have you back anymore . I'll learn to let you go slowly . Is just my foolishness to realised how much i need you now . It's too late to say anything now . Perhaps , we belong to different worlds . Baby , I wanna love you , I wanna use my whole life to wait for you , because I know you 're th one that I looking for . Yes , I gonna let you go , without me , you are much happier now . Now that I know I had lose you , I choose to love you silently and to wait endlessly . Boy , if one day you looked back at those memories we once shared , you must remember , that silly girl will still be here waiting for you to be back . Sorry for hurting you like noone bussiness . Sorry for not doing my parts as a stead . I'm sorry baby .

#394 : It's too late ...

2009-01-03T09:57:00.002+08:00

well , I have lose my love one just like this . I seriously regretted for what I have done . When I realised how much I love him , everything was already too late . He given up on me le . I knew there isn't anything I could do about it . Cause I created all this problems . I know he will never be back again . Is just I am way too naive to believe and thoughts . All I could do now is wait endlessly even knowing no hopes bahs . sigh*

#393 : 1 last chance alright ?

2009-01-02T20:42:00.002+08:00

A start of a brand new year in school . Went school with swollen eyes [: nice right ? ;D So boring , early morning got caught of side hair , argh ! went to class , oh our teachers all chinese ? hahas . Vice-principal assembly , made me wanna sleep uhs ! zzzz okay luhs , everything was quite fine afterall . Monday got test le ? crazy man ! zzzz andand , gonna stayed back till 3.30pm ! ohmindgosh , eeyer , i dont quite like it uhs ! D; butbut , future gonan start from there [:

I realised I was wrong for choosing certain chooses . And I didnt know I will regret so much. I will never give up for now , and will have th never-say-die spirt [: I know this time round , I will never regrets . I will follow my hearts , and I know where I'm leading from here . I start smiling , because I know I will find my happiness from you ;D

#391 : Let th bygones be bygones .

2008-12-30T19:46:00.003+08:00

Time files yeah ? So fast a years gonna end . And I went through so much this year ! If everything will to repeat again , I really hope I could kill myself better . It wasnt a easy path this year bahs . seriously hate all this little thing that had happened . Shall write a summary to close this chapter of my life and let 2009 be a brand new freasher start ! [:

January 2008 ,
Everything wasn't smooth . I am just being so moody alright ! Fall out of love bahs . Then i felt so unloved and so on . hahas , I am real depressed because of th feeling of being neglected bahs . silly girl !

February 2008 ,
nothing much , my mood got better [: good uhs ! cheer ! (= And i keep on giving myself motivation words .

March 2008 .
Happy Birthday Sia'Ming'Fen ;D thanks for th great birthday party by someone who aren't friend now . but is still appreciated ;D Started th month by being cheated money due to some problem ? Then sis make police report uhs . see , others buy psp no problem we got problem . SIAO ehs ! ;D Went to sec 2 camps ! woohoo , real fun okay ! cus get to try alot of thingy ! [: and , i didnt cry at campsite , ha's i am getting braver [: not bad ;D attended my cousin ROM , so quite a sweet moments yeah ;D got alittle mature from somebody [: cus he once said , "being mature is not about age , but is your willingness to accept it anot " becaus eof his this sentence , i learn to cheer up ! ;D i not do sillything of course . As in , i no longer cut my hand , chiong panodol or whatever shit . but i lost this friend just because of some silly stuff happened bahs . however , i will never forget him in life [: a great lesson being taught by him [: seemed like march had been a great month ? many thing happened bahs .

April 2008 .
Happy April fool ! ;D woah , i read through this month post , and there sweet moment bahs . Been unable to let go of a relationship that happened on 310607 ? hahas , but is really sweet moment ma . woohoo , i dont know what i can say about this month bahs .. zzz It was really great studying with gan sweetdear , but i lost her somehow le bahs . now we lead a different path . but she's seriously sweet [: thansk so th everything however ;D

May 2008 .
zzz . nothing much ? Did outside CIP at th end of th month [:

June 2008 .
Know a bunch of new friends . That's when problems started and life changes . I appreciate 2 person , [sweetdear & nuer] shall not reveals th name bahs . cause it's meaningless le . But , thansk for th really great moment you guys given me yah . like i say , those endless outing [:

July 2008 .
zzz . nothing much ?

August 2008 .
thanks for sweetdear coming to my class to pei me almost everyday [: I didnt forget [:

September 2008 .
That's when things starts to turn out badly .

October 2008 .
class outing [: hahas . my life is getting better , because i have "you" in my life . [: but i didnt cherish you . i'm sorry . work started too [:

November 2008 .
work is getting stress ! D; make amy gugu angry !D; keep fall sick .

December 2008 .
I wanna learn cooking ! ;D this month still quite fresh to me ar . ;D yeah , i make a new friend ? he's nicholas [: hahas ! he's a great guy man [: shall wish him everything smooth next year . ;D hmm , thought i started off this month feeling moody . but i came to sence at th very last moment of 2008 [: great right [: thanks everyone for th everything ;D

while , this year times seemed to fly really fast luhs . Everything was like blur yet fresh in mind [: Didn't expect myself to meet friendship problem until i learn to cherish it so much , but yes , i deserved it somehow bahs ? maybe you people was right , i am too attitude . but you people was way too much too . however , i appreciate all th memories i had with you people [: Met alot of love problems too ? while , i shall not have any stead till after my 'o' lvl bahs [: hahas , let th nature take its course [: not in a rush to get one so soon too ;D friend are always better than lover ? ;D I'm happy as in , so much i went through i learn to be so much stronger [; I know how to motivate myself more and how to stay happy . I had finally came to sence so i know i am NOT gonna be so silly again le . cheer * ;D

I will close this chapter of my life , to start a great one next year . I know where I am leading my way . Because i have familys and 1 truth friend around [: I know I no longer th girl missing in th forest ! =D I really find my way out ! [: I felt so great luhs ! hahhas ! ;D All this thing i had gain , i will remember it . All th mistake i had done , no point regretting or not forgiving myself .IS useless . cause it's already th past . So i will love & pamper myself more from now on . To remind myself not to fall into silly trick . CHEER * [:

Before I end everything ,
I wish every single one ,
HAPPY NEW YEAR ! [:
Let 2009 be a new start for you people too [:
Every to be safe and happ always [:
* be it you're someone i dislike or whatever :D

Hey people , I might be changing my new blog url to wordpress .
so it might be my last post over here .
however , will keep you people inform of th new link .
SMILE ;D

#390 : You gonna be stronger , XL .

2008-12-30T19:34:00.002+08:00

hmm , it's Tuesday today ;D slept late last night . Didn't expect I could wake up at 11am today ? Decided to go town with mom , so i could change my short ;D walked around , eat quite alot . Bought 2 jacket and 3 t-shirt from i.p zone [: home at 4.30pm ? Then packed my cupboard , so messy ?? Too much clothings le bahs ? so throw away quite alot ? Tidy my thingy [: Nag at mom for what sis created th mess for me uhs ! >< yeah , out for dinner with parents at 5.30pm . Then bought alot of thingy from ntuc , hoping i wont starve for th night [: hahas ! ;D nothing much le bahs ?

tommorrow , gonna be last day of 2008 , how great ? Plan to wake up early , accompany mom to wet market buy sis streamboat prawns and so on . Then eat breakfast ;D At night , streamboat ! ;D sis "brothers" are coming , so is like it would be fun yet very noisy of course [: Quite excited bahs ;D

2009 is coming in no moments , so you people have plans already ?
yeah , of course i have [:
- I'm gonna study damn hard next year .
-Join a cca , {volleyball?}
- Do voulunteering work ;D
- Working ? [if i got th time luhs !]
hahas , that's all bahs ? Hopefully my time would be damn pack ? so I wouldnt have time to think rubbish ! Next year should be a good start for everything . I wanna be real happy man ! [: andand get fatter pls !!! [:

well , my next post should be a summary of this year bahs ? hahas

yao ni tian tian kai xin ke yi ma ?
dui bu qi , wo hai shi guan xin ni de .

#389 : One step at a time [:

2008-12-29T13:36:00.002+08:00

Satursday , 27 december [:
work , work , work ! [: oh , so boring ? I thoguth there will be alot of return ? Yet ended up i chiong and i finished evrything by 10.30am ? So i was slacking all th way [: Helped Amy to go th store take thing for about 4 or 5 times . zzz . well , got to chat with Ah li korkor over there , so is still worth it bahs ? hahas . hungry! tea break i ate so much luhs ! ohmindgosh ! yeah , i wanna be fatfat ? hahas . at least to acceptable weight! ;D if not nobody want me le lah , hahas! and cause i am thin , so is very difficult to find clothing too ! >< hahas ! yeah , after work , way down lot 1 looked for family [: went to buy my school shoes and stationary ? hahas ! hmm , i bought a phychology book " If it's hurt , it isn't love " is liek full of love problem ? i no love problem lehs ? howhow ? hahas ! nevermind ;D yeah , treated family to pastamania . cause me $40 ? zzzz hahas ! yeah , end th day like this ;D

Sunday , 28 december .
sososo tired ! woke up at 11+ )= got prepared and went out at 1pm with sis . Bused down far east plaza , making me so giddy ? Due to th hot weather and th bus luhs ? hahas ! Shop around , bought a short [ eek , cant weight , too small ? gonna go down change again ! )= ] , then buy a new wallet , new pencil box ! hello kitty ! (= is like so nice , dont bear to use it , ended up in my room as part of decoration ! ;D yeah , boguth a high heels for sis too ;D hmm , 4pm comes , and meet up aunty mingyu & tangsai . went to "highest" to cut hair ;D finished cutting , got a long wait for Aunty mingyu yeah ;D sis went home first . yeah , finally she is done by 8pm ? so decided to cab home ;D spent a total of $150 ? nice one mingfen ! ;D hahas . went home , so busy with stuff , and thanks sis for helping me to cook! ;D slept at 12 + ?

Monday , 29 december , today :D
Woke up , wanna go work , but is raining cats & dogs . so shall sleep ! ;D woke somebody up and went to sleep again ;D yeah , couldnt sleep well too , as in , not use to not working suddenly ? hahas . rubbbish ! * hahas . gonna rot at home ! )= many thing to do actually ? like iron clothing , pack my thing ? clean up my room all that ? hahhas ! but pretty lazy & tired ! zzzz

yeah , grants me all this wishes , i shall marry you ! ;D
- watch th sunset & sunrise ;D
- take th cable cars ! :D
- Zoo ! :D
- gaze th stars ;D
- red rose! { rubbish ? } [:

hahas, i am crazy currently ? hahs ! ;D

#388 : Wont you say you love me too ? D;

2008-12-26T22:12:00.002+08:00

Th best sacrifice is only made for th on you love th most .

Yesterday , 25 dec .
went to lot1 and bishan with tangsai . got myself a box of chocolates ;D that all ? merry christmas .

Friday , 26 dec .
went to work ! ;D hahas , miracle right ? Didn't went to class outing , i guess it still on right ? hahas . Hope 2e1'08 enjoyed themselves today [: hmm , it was kinda a boring day ? Returned returned returned ! zzzzz was bored to death , so went to buy lunch with tangsai . way down ljs [: help julia buy too [: ate many today uhs , as i promised somebody [ certain promised are always meant to kept ] smile * hahas . hmm , after work , slack at work place till 6.38pm ? read newspaper , yawn* way down bugis to have dinner with nicholas and way home [: ohyes , SO sucky when i was in th train half way . tears almost drop , hahas . i too emotional le bahs . sooner or later , i gonna have depression if i dont console and motivate myself [:

I'm become crazier ? I got so moody easier and tears drop easier ? no wonder , i becoming quieter and bad temper ? hahas . i know if i dont let go , i wouldnt be happy . Is just i wouldnt want to forgive myself . i hate myself so much . everyday , i wonder , why i seemed so "tao ren yan" perhaps i am getting my answer clearer bahs ? how i wish i could share all my sorrow and pain with someone . but i didnt got a chance or just anyone to pour out everything . and that's when i always said , " xin shi wu ren zhi , fan nao shui ming bai " ... perhaps , this is th most moment i am suffering now ? leave me alone would be so much ? cus i talked th most rubbish in this moment of time and life seemed so serious to me . talk to me you'll really got sick and tired & of course frustration and so on .. hahas . that why many would rather do their own thing then entertain me uhs ? hahas .

Yuan lai ni yao de yi ran bu shi wo D;

#387 : I'll always be there for you ;D

2008-12-25T11:08:00.004+08:00

A season of Joys & Giving [:

Let me start off by showing readers video ;D

hahas , this is a video which I have great impact on ?
Th first time i saw this video was when I was in primary 2 ?
It's a video which i find it cute and interesting bahs [:
Hope you guys like it ;D
{ if cant see from my blog , go to http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c1yexgs7xiY }

Tuesday , 23 december .
Went to work as usual , got to eat a slice of christmas cake by boss . After work , way down orchard look for sis . Bought chirstmas present from nike and walked around . Was so tired and we left town about 1 hour later . Reached lot 1 , went to buy some christmas present and our dinner . Way back home ;D

Wednesday , 24 december .
Went to work ;D ohyes , it's christmas eve . So feeling so great luhs , last day of work too ! ;DD There isn't many customer bahs . Received quite alot of christmas present luhs ! Thanks so much for th present and greeting , people ! ;D Ate christmas cake again by Julia . After work , wait for Candy & Ah li . So wasted alot of th time yeah . Reached home was about 8pm ? Started preparing bbq thing and gave out present ;D hahas . Have alot of fun playing poker cards with candy , ah li & nicholas . Then drank a can of beers and some red wine . Until I was like abit drunk ? hahas . Then they went home about 11.50pm ?? Ended up me & Tangsai countdown ;D hahaas . bath & so on . Tangsai busy talking with mama . so waited . finally slept at 2+ am ;D Then woke up at 5+ msg till about 6+ slept again ;D

Thursday , 25 december .
yeah , today ! ;D Going out with tangsai to walk around singapore ? Supposed i wanna go sea side with nichloas but he dont seemed to be free ? zzzz yeah , gonna have fun today bahs ?

Tommorow , might return to work ? hahas . Let's see how . [:

ohyes , i wanna thanks nicholas , ah li , tangsai & candy for attending th bbq last night yeah ;D
Then i wanna thanks many people for th present & greeting ;D
of course , present is all from my colloagues [ar , wrong spelling again ? ]

That's all for th day ? hahas .

Meryy christmas ! [:

#386 : you gonna be happy alright [:

2008-12-22T21:39:00.001+08:00

Yesterday , 21 december .
yeah , i promised myself to be happy for th day ;D went to work at 9+ reached about 10+ . Ate breakfast and started working [: That nicholas uhs , haiyo , so late then come . cause me to stand at his place for th past 45mins ! zzzz Work was pretty okay ? Just a moment was kinda busy wrapping tons of presents !! tired)= yeah , i am kinda crazy too . and that's when tangsai teached me some funny way of saying " shen jing bing !" so i was like keep calling people 'crazy' ! [: finally finished work ! went to wet market to eat with nicholas and tangsai [: way down town after that . so tired and boring uhs . cabbed home ;D yeah , i managed to stay happy and crazy uhs ! ;DD

Today , 22 december .
woohoo , i'm like quite hyper today uhs ! ;D Is just abit affected by tangsai fruastration , so fierce luhs her ! )= woah , i ate alot today ! my lunch was like maggi mee then eat rice again . full like siao ? hahas . was damn tired today !! )= went to shop alone at bugis after work [: was kinda bored luhs . went to eat japanese food and headed home . zzz

when should i stop working lehs ?
24dec ? or 27 ? hahas .

#385 : your smile , my days [:

2008-12-20T23:44:00.002+08:00

friday ,19 december .
went to work and it wasnt a good day either ! was rather vexed and moody bahs . afterwork , went to orchard with tangsia & nichloas [: yeah , thanks so much making me happier uhs , nicholas lee ! [: walk around , th light is beautiful and th town became so lively luhs ! ;D went home at about 10pm ? bus was flood , so decided to take cab . ended up bus to novena and cab home . thanks for sending me home yeahs [:

satursday , 20 december .
black listed ? i dislike today either ! everything seemed to be so wrong yea ! that's when i choose to be quiet and keep thing to myself bahs . noone gonna listen nor to undertsand bahs ;D ~~~ after work , went to take train , went lot 1 bought christmas present and way down granny house . didnt eat alot ? instead 1 or 2 mouth of noodle bahs . way down ten mile , was stuck at shengsiong for about 2 hours ? bought alot of thing . and bought bbq food bahs . so heavy uhs . cab home . yeah , was super hungry now . shall wait for my burger . (= is alreay 11.56pm le uhs ! tommorow still working ! yawn*

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#384 : I can blow your grey world away [:

2008-12-18T21:51:00.002+08:00

wenesday , 17 december .
happy birthday to my dearest cousin , loh qi yao :D
hmm , things was about th same bahs . after work went to downtown east to have lunch with uncle . Then , went to his house . bath & was about to fall asleep . Thanks nicholas for th accompany yeah ;D finally piano lesson started at about 10.35pm ? finished about 11+ and i asked for longer . so ended at 12+ midnight [: went to sleep after that .

thursday , 18 december .
Felt so tired yeah ! wake up , prepared and headed down to work . ohshit , i missed that bus . so i didnt reach by 8.30am . instead 8.36am )= oh , today work seemed so suck to me . was tired and moody yeah ? Cause things dont seemed so smoothe when 'choco' wasn't around yeah . then aunty mingyu realised me being weird weird de . then i told her i'm fine . she dont believe luhs ! then she keep think that is because 'somebody' wasnt around so i was so dead and moody uhs ? lols . went to bugis with tangsai after work . bought minyu present as well as candy & stacey de liao . but i dont know what to buy for 'somebody' uh . hmm , then thought of buying a newbie tee-shirt but didnt buy at last . instead tangsai buy . hahas . okay . that's about it .

#383 : Never have a dream come true .

2008-12-16T20:42:00.002+08:00

hmm , it's tuesday today ! ;D didnt manage to stay awake last night instead I doze off hugging my phone ! )= woke up very late today ![: at about 12noon ? hahas , then got preapared and went to school for dentl check up . thanks mama for th accompany ;D went home , watched youtube , eat cheesecake and take a nap . oh , i'm awake now :D hahas . still felt so tired bahs . it's almost 9pm now , i haven eat my dinner uhs ! zzz

- wont be home tmr , as it's wednesday again ! :D piano lesson uhs .
- ha's i thought of working till 27dec instead[: {cus i know many people will miss me de } ;x
- got my paid le ![: can shopping ! :D
- headaches of what christmas present to buy for people! D;

that's all for th day , dinner time? [:

#382 : Hey boy , I'm sorry for what i've did .

2008-12-15T22:14:00.002+08:00

To be mature means to face,
and not to evae every fresh crisi that comes.
- Fritz Kunkel

Sunday , 141208 ~.o
Went to work as usual [: reached bugi junction seemed to be late , so i walk super fast . dint know aunty mingyu was behide me catching up with me . sorry ! butbutbut , i'm not as late as some'tortoise' [: {no offence luhs !!!} hahas .. it seemed to be a boring day with right eye swollen !!! thanks for th eye mo uh , somebody ! :D I'm sososo touched can !! [: As in i really didn't expect it luhs :D yeah , ytd seemed to past fast and slow ? hahas .

After work , woohoo ! :D went to shopping with TangSai & Nicholas :D andandand , i pei fu nicholas luhs . can found so many thing he wanna buy . well , Tangsai & me see NONE ! -.- hahas . went to eat dinner at 9pm ? ate finished at about 9.30pm ? then busy chitchatting till 10.04pm ? hahas , got calls from mama & i gonna rushed home ! )= thought of taking train of course . but nicholas insisted i should take cab !hahas , scare i dont know how to go home ar ? hahas ! thanks alot anyway . When Tangsai bathe finished le , we both still at there waiting for cab luhs , funny right ? hahs ! we waited for an hours . see lah , nicholas , noone wanna driveyou home . hahas , joking [: hmm , reached home was alrdy 11.45 , then mama at downstair waited for me . sorry anyway . i know i shouted at you was a wrong , but i just felt unreasonable for some reason bahs. ohyesyes , thanks for th cheeecake uhs , somebody ! [:

Monday . 151208 .
EEK , it wasnt a good day somehow ? phew* hate it man ? reached work place was super hungry luhs ! seriously thanks tangsai for buying breakfast for ma :DDDD started doing returned while busy chewing my sweet luhs. hahas. Boss mr wong walked in th shop , first qns . "ytd you got come ma uhs ? " and i was like -.- of course i did ! then i went to walked around , he asked me help him buy mee rubus and asked me if i want to eat too . No pls . hahas. didnt have much appetite today though i'm so hungry luhs . mood was like unstable uhs ? and was bing affected by a toy "cause & effect toy [ musical ] " a wish from a children . then i was like huh ? what is it ? so i asked boss . he said i dontknow th meaning mehs ? i study english till so lousy ! D; it isn't i dont know th meaning , is i dont know how to explain as well as i cant think of anything ! neverminds . skipskipskip* helped boss buy roti prata at 5.30pm rushed there and backed :D nicholas left earlier today so ya . finally 6 pm , off we go :D take paid first . see th amount of money , i felt even more sad luhs . so little )= nevermind , i shall sacrifice :D i shall use th money wisely and not to buy so many thing i dont even like uhs ? waste money =P

After work , went to bugis street with aunty mingyu & tangsai . Walked around felt tired and went home [: fallen asleep in th train luhs . so i am more energestic now :D while ,let's see what i can do now while waiting for somebody to chiong his thing uhs ? hahas :D

I'm seriously sorry for what I've did .
Sorry to say those words and hurt your feeling .
Sorry to waste your time all this while .
Then I realised I dont belong there .

#381 : laughs from th bottom of your heart ;DDD

2008-12-13T22:05:00.002+08:00

wooohoo ! :D started th day off feeling damn tired with a swollen eyes )= too tired le luhs ! Reached work place ,that tortoise nicholas haven come. Always so late de , pig ! xD MUhahhahas ! Busy removing those price tag , and th hot hairdryer never fail to burnt my hand ! DDD; Ate alot today luhs ! got 5 bread , 2 cups of milo for breakfast ! Then 1 break and 1 cup of drinks for tea break! then noodles for lunch ! ohmindgosh ! I kept hungry luhs !! Oh , i'm mad ! Afternoon seemed to be sososo busy luhs . First time so busy since i came this holiday luhs . So i was chiong here and there . Help up with cashier , and i rmb giving th wrong change .{ give th person extra $0.30 ;x} then , i press wrong one time , causes th customer to be damn so angry and unhappy , hey i'm sorry luhs ! of course , sorry to mingyu too . as she is with me de ma . i make th mistake , she got to help me void away , if not she will get into trouble .)= then help to swipe th credit card and nets all that seemed to be so stress luhs ! Its has been age since i touch those thing luhs . )= hmm , I also help to serve th customer quite alot as well as wrapping th present . andand i rmb being cut by th sharp wrapping paper !! >< suay ! hahas . it's really so fun today luhs ! those kids are really noisy ! and they put everything on th floor , make a mess ! piak you people pi gu then you know ar ! hahas . ohyes , one indian customer hor , keep tell his son and daughter , wait AUNTY wrapping for you , dont disturb . keep aunty here and there ! EXCUSE ME ! i am still a young little girl hor , this year 14 years old nia ! Aunty your head luhs ! blind ! how dare he say a pretty girl as aunty ? insult!!! hahahs . if i aunty , he already great grandfather [: no offence*

After work , nicholas gave me a roundround bottle of chewy gum and he runaway ! >< kill you then you know xD hahas . you know , i lazy eat already still need throw away de ma ? that why i dislike chewy gum :D hahas. okay luhs , give you face , i will eat it alright [: hahas ! [: thanks anyway :D

Supposed to be happy de bahs , but on train , seemed so moody ? hahas . too tired perhaps . my mood today is so neutral . up and down . hahas [: met up sis and mum to have dinner . then walked around at lot 1 . went to library , wanna borrow psychology book , but i cant fnd ! )= forget it . woah , th renovation so nice lor , th library so bigbigbig luhs ! hahas . went home at about 9 as i am really tired !

ohyes , I'm hungry now ! )= lalallas . anyone wanna cook for me ? better feed me luhs , then i marry you :D hahas !

going work tmr [: off at tuesday . gonna pack those mess tmr! )= hahas . dont dirty my shirt can liao . still no ideas what to wear tmr !)= is sunday , shall waer nicer ? hahas .

tortoise still never online , i wanna fall asleep le lah ! zzz

#380 : There's a hero lies in you ;D

2008-12-12T20:25:00.002+08:00

Well , started th day feeling tired )= thanks for th morning msg by nicholas luhs ! [: went to work , and everything seemed to be th same . Maybe I was too tired and that why i seemed to be moody or perhaps is th never ending thought in my mind . I thought of many thing as i went to buy lunch with mingyu & stacey . Maybe that's one of th reason why i dislike my working place bahs . Nothing much happened today . End work , accompany TangSai to see th malay groom and bribe . [did i spell wrong ? ;x] Then , walked with Ah Li since i saw him . Then saw Nicholas followed by ....[ opps ! i dont know th name =x ] hahas , supposed to walk together , then i realised all gone except Nicholas . Separated with him at cityhall .

Reached cck , decided to walk super slow home . Thought of going for a run , but lazy to get change . Reached my house nearby , decided to go th playground which i go everytime , be it sad or happy . Sat at there , th wind blow , memories of so much thing appeared in my mind . Then , small kids wanna play playground , and so i went home . Looking at those kids , how i wish i could be like them . They're so naive , no stress , no worries . Most importantly , their smile . How fake will their smile and laughter be ? I guess all they know is laugh from th bottom of their heart . How great it is , isn't it ? Then look at those moving vehicles , it tells me most of them know where they are leading to , they have their own life and plan . In th morning , they are rushing to work . At night , they are rushing home to accompany their family or have some party . But when i look at reflect of my life , things seemed to be so different . As in , I dont know my way , my direction , my life . I have no plans at all . When everything seemed like i have let go , it's just i choose to ignore it . But , those thoughts of those day always filled my mind . So , i hasn't let go at all . Be it relationship or personal problems . Wondering how am i going to be happy if i continue to be in this way . How am i going to start my 2009 a better year ? There's so much problem happening , and it make me become so quiet suddenly . I no longer have th trust in everyone . And that's when i choose to keep everything to myself bahs [:

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Enough of craps . yeah , I plan to work till this mth 24 , chirstmas eve ! [: hahas . After that , i going buy assignment ? , school bag and so on .... planning to try some new thing [: like cooking as i said . andand , more thing bahs . hahas .

hungry .....

#379 : Let everything go smooth [:

2008-12-11T22:09:00.002+08:00

Tuesday , 091208 .
went to school to look for ms jaz with xavier . Then went to buy book . After that cabbed home . Nothing much [:

Wedenesday , 101208 .
Headed to work . Went to uncle house for piano lesson . That's all ? hahas . andand , thanks nicholas for th sweetsweetsweet chocolate & sweet yeah [:

Thursday , 111208 .
Dint went to work with uncle , as i got to woke up at 6am !!! So i woke up later , and went to work myself . Reached work place was just 8.30am !! Th first time i reached so early luhs . Then helped them to push those stuff out and pack thing nicely . [: Evrything was rather smooth today bahs . Amy asked me to look out for cashier , thansk mingyu for saving my life ;D Wrapped present . And end th day [:

*somebody been saying me weird in his blog ! >< cus of my nick , sillypig instead of skinnest pig ? hahas .! :D

Time for party and have some fun uhs ?
28 dec 08 , buffet @ novena with mingyu , stacey and ......

#378 : I'm always who I'm [:

2008-12-08T22:32:00.003+08:00

Friday , 5dec 08 (;
went to work as usual [: yeah , i felt so relaxing bahs . As in , i can walk every way i want [: i have so much freedom luhs ! thanks uncle & aunty mingyi [:

Satursday , 6dec 08 :D
work again ;D after work went to makan dinner . Then went to bugis junction shop area . Followed by buying chocolates [: After that bring family to eat " tian bin"? walked to suntec city shop around and home sweet home .

Sunday , 7 dec 08 =lo
woke up , decided to work [: cause got extra cash luhs . went to work , so many colleage came . nothing to do , so chit-chatted , walked around . After work , way down lot 1 waited for family . Then way down granny house . Have dinner downstair . CRABS! hahas , i help granny take th fresh and i accidentally cut my hand . )= then went to granny house , cab home .

Monday , 8 dec 08 =/
yeah , thought of going limbang park for a run @ 5am with dad . ended up sleeping luhs . 8+am woke up , waited for godma & goddad . way down don't know where to have breakfast . Then , far east plaza to have hair cut and bougth quite alot of things . follow by Tangs . Then vivo city , but th carpark is FULL )= so back to redhill to have dinner ? Granny house next . After that go aunt house downstair have prata [: i eat alot today uhs . and i saw many familiar people [: thanks for th great shopping today :D and lastly god- dad & ma for th whole day shopping? :D

Tomorrow , going to school to look for ms jaz . Follow by buy books . Then cab home ? Then go dating ! :D one month anniversary with dear tml :DD

P.s : should be not posting th next few day .

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yijing : okay lor )=

#377 : If only i could see th rainbow once again .

2008-12-04T20:11:00.002+08:00

wednesday 3 dec ! didnt went to work again :D headed down to bugis at 5+ . went to uncle office [: chit-chatted ahwile , then was about to leave , saw boonley korkor , andy korkor & julia jiejie . so chit-chatted ahwile . then went off to uncle car and went to fetch aunt . way down white sand shopping centre and have our dinner at sakae sushi ! :D I'm super full luhs ! eat so many thing , somemore aunt still asked me eat more . really cant take it , and i told aunt i very full le . i think th bill quite ex bahs . then way down uncle house ! :DD over there , watch tv till 10.30pm . got our piano lesson tgt with my jiejie being taught by my cousin , Wen Ni . [: th cutest teacher uhs ! hahas , she said she first time teached so fast luhs . hahas , but sis and me understand ma . got our theory book as well as lesson book and so on . really quite fun luhs ! sis was planning to take till grade 3 exam , while i wanna take to grade 5 [: if possible till grade 9 of cos ! :DD uncle got to buy us keyboard asap uhs . thanks so much ! :D end my day by having a small cone of icecream and tv till 1am . couldnt sleep well actually )=

thursday , 4dec ! was supposed to wake up at 5.55AM today . butbutbut , tired ~! sososo , didnt went to have breakfast with uncle . but he give us $20 each to have our breakfast ! pretty lots luhs ! thank so much luhs !!! best uncle nahs ! :D but sis & i slept till 11+ ? then bath so on , wenhao korkor ride us to simei mrt [: thanks! have ljs with sis . supposed to meet ms jaz at 1pm , but i cant make it . sorry luhs! so appointment change to next tuesday 10am . was wondering should i take wholeday leave or halfday leave . well , reached home at 3pm . watched video and went out at 4.30pm with sis to cck stadium ! [: play badminton with sister de 'brothers for life' ! [: a baunch of joker luhs . quite nice playing with them [: home at 7pm while , they went lot 1 to have dinner . came home bath and makan . aday ending soon )=

well , let's see what plan i have got .
tml - working , then home-sweet-home ?
sat - working , meet up mama , shopping , treat them eat dessert ?[did i spell wrongly ?]
sun - am i working ? ;x
mon - holiday !!! :D where should i go lehs ?
tue - go school buy book , meet ms jaz , then go work ? or maybe go dating ! one-mth anniversary !! :D
wed - working , then uncle house , piano !! :D
thurs - breakfast with sis and uncle , working ! [but sis said she going work with me FOC !!!]

look further away ,
somewhere around 20dec - class outing ?
24 dec - christmas eve !!! at home count down , with redwine , roasted duck , and i dont know uhs !
31dec ? - newyear eve !! where should i go lehs ? hahahs ! [:

well , a year gonna end again , next year will be better alright ? of course , every tml is a mysterious gift to be explore [: and every yesterday is a history meant to kept [: why keep history ? cus since they have past , why not take it as a lesson and a sweet memories ? [: life is neutral , if only you're able to think in a possitive way ? rubbish me ? ;x

well , i seemed to be nagging when it comes to blogging , but i getting quiet in reality ? ohmindgosh ! tml working ma , hmm , okay , i hate working nowaday , but i should look at it in a happier way bahs . it's great working , cus got money to spent and you'll never know who you'll be able to met over there [: and i am happy to see those small kids being so happy to buy toys . lallas , i dont know what talking me ! )=

Is time to post photos ! [:
* i didnt say i'm posting now -.- muhahahhahs ! :D

#376 : Smile like you never been sad .

2008-12-02T22:17:00.002+08:00

ohohoh , a new month had began ! how can i start my month by being so depressed ?! nono , i gonna end this year a beautiful ones .

well , end november 30 by going bbp and granny house [: then pasam malam , home sweet home . got a whole night entertain by video :D money not enough 2 , then 881 , lastly , cousin's wedding 2hr video ! :D then yeah , goodnight .

start this month by , lalalalas ~ pretty bad uhs ! but is okay bahs , i will recovered de . and though today everything seemed to fall apart , but i shall still move on .

was thinking wheather i should continue working anot . sigh* tml gonna be aday to spent . to work or not , i still doubting . but at night i going learn piano bahs . then follow by thursday go school cabin find ms jac.

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clasS 2e1'08 ! ATTENSION !*
Kenneth had suggested to go escape theme park for 2nd class outing . Is it okay with you guys ? tagged me alright . to tell me you people ideas and so on :D thanks alot . it should be held at about 20 dec ? somewhere there .

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TAGGED REPLIED ! -
Miaoyu : thanks , yeah , I recovered le :D
WeiLi ; Hazel : thanks for th tagged :D
Kenneth : hmm , help me ask around see who is interested going escape theme park then :D if those who arent't interested going there ask about where they wanna go . thanks so much :DD
Yijing : is great if i dont loss weight . but it dont seemed like i am gaining weight uhs ! :D takecares !
Eugenia : hmm , if i no longer working , i msg you alright ? when you're free ? it gonna be a few days cleaning ? hahas , cus granny house though look small , but very dirty luhs ! so we gonna have a tough time cleaning ! ;x

#375 : If time could stop .

2008-11-29T18:56:00.002+08:00

woohoo , didnt went to work again ! :D hahas, funny right ? Many people wants to work , and no job . But i got job , lazy work . ! )= hahas , okay luhs , i will chiong working after monday alright . earn lots of money to buy new clothing for chinese new year and buy some christmas present ? hahahs , lots of plan ! :D hmm , is a must to learn well piano too . as uncle said my cousin bought th piano book for over $100+ . waaa , expensive luhs . andand uncle said if i am interested to continue , he would buy me a keyboard to practise . even more intereseted buy me a second hand piano !! :D hahas .

Sia Ming Fen , wants to learn COOKING !!! who can teach me lehs ? I wanna cook good food , i wanna bake cakes , pie tarts and moreeeee ............ ohyes , especially my chocolate !! :DDD

Hmm , this month will end on tml . my task , i haven complete )= but is okay bahs , though i alrdy wrote th whole story , but really no courage to . mingfen , jiayou , you can do it de ! if you believe you can , you surely can !!! :DDDDD maybe tml bahs .

oh , is already 7+ ! papa , mama where are you ? i'm bored ! i wanna go out walk walk le lah . you two go dating then jiejie sleeping ! zzzz going crazy le luhs !!! ))=

#374 : Wo men zhe me le ?

2008-11-28T21:07:00.002+08:00

I didnt went to work again . Well , slacked at home lor zzzz ! Didnt msg him until he msg me luhs . yeah , nothing much actually .

yeah , end of this month coming so soon , and i haven do what i supposed to finish . sigh . i really dont know what i should do too . life is getting nerves on me. D; felt so meaningless , so boring and tired .

As time passes , we became colder . Why is it so , i doubt . Both of us seemed drifting apart after a cold war . How long will this last ? Only if we face up to reality ...

#373 : That is a hero lies in YOU ! :D

2008-11-26T18:38:00.002+08:00

yeah , off again , nice one mingfen ! $200 fly away !!! hahaas , nevermind . hmm , was feeling giddy and diarrhea in th morning, so didnt went to work . was rather tired uhs . so rot at home . ohyes , didnt went for piano lesson as a result )= lalas , nothing much uhs ?

Hero - Mariah Carey

There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will meit away
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt will disappear
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
Lord knows......
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away
hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time you'll find the away
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
That a hero lies in you...
That a hero lies in you......
--- END ---

#372 : Gonna win you over ;D

2008-11-25T12:15:00.002+08:00

Loving a person is not about his/her personailty or looks ;
but is about th feeling in your heart [:

yeah , today on sick-leave uhs ! [: felt so great , as i am recovering !! :D hmm , mama said going genting on 26december till 29dec , woah ! it gonne be shiok ? hahas ! hmm , one of my friend asking me if i would like to join th chingay performer , so i was considering too . anyone wanna join me ? msg me alright ! :D yeah , let's rot at home ! :D

2e1'08 classouting , ehs , where issit ?!?! hey , you people , when you all want it lehs ? chirstmas class outing ? maybe we can put it on 22 dec ? a monday ! :D hahas , but i have no ideas where you all want it to be yeah ! so give some ideas :D thanks so much uhs !

tml wont be at home ? as after work , straightaway go uncle house ! [: as i learning piano at night ma . hahas ! :D surely is learn th notes first de )= cant touch th piano ? hahahs ! i want straighaway learn to play song , dont want learn basic ! zzz lalallas !

shyshy and baby is loved ! *

#371 : I don't wanna let go D;

2008-11-24T17:11:00.002+08:00

yesterday , went to IMM with family . bougth alot of stuff yeah ! spent alot of money too . went to eat sushi with sis at ichiba . then shop around all tht . ohyeah , i'm sick !

today , i wanna go work , but i cant . as i am really sick ! got sorethoat and fever D; i cant move luhs , but mama keep waking me up ! wake up , drink milo , eat porridge , bath and way down limbang see doctor . th doctor say i kena " liu xing xing gan mao !" -.- now th temperature is 38.6 degree , it will increase up to 40.1 degrees . and my sickness will last me 4 to 5 day ! with 2 days MC . and 4 type of medicine ! trying to swollow 2 tablets at a time , but i vommitted )= so went to slp . yeah , that is my day ?

I don't want let go , but do you ?

#370 : We have lost our maturity thinking since we been tgt .

2008-11-23T14:14:00.002+08:00

Yesterday , woke up at about 8am ? Got preapred and cab down grandma house together with my family members . Reached there , slacked abi, and was hungry . Went to coffeeshop eat breakfast ;D Then went back to void desk . Helped to fold those "jing zi" . Then headed up , th "sai gong" was already there and so on stuff . yeah , after whole ceremony , eat and so on bahs ? Was pretty boring , so get cloths , a pile of water and start wiping th dust away ;D Perhaps you people never know , my grandma hse was really dirty with full of dusts ! >< style="big: ; i: Hope to strike tonight bahs; went: tml still need to work; 4: Then cousin Eugenia decided to help up . Then cousin Qi Yao helped up too . hahas; least: Well , i wiped for 2hour 30 mins okay; time: I blanja de lehs . hahas , can see their smile on th face , everything is worthy [: Bathe and rest :D Aunt given me $50 to buy alcohol . so went to teckwhye ntuc with dad . went to buy 4D first as i first time clean th unit number ma . hahas . bought a total of $14.40 for th numbers .

ohfuck , my post suddenly disappear ! * lazy to retype liao !

#369 : Miracle will happen if dont give up ?

2008-11-21T23:13:00.002+08:00

Mood : numb ?
Song : chuan shuo

Thanks god , "kuku" no longer angry with me le ? Ater 1 whole week yarhs ? Stomach pain pain in th morning de , thanks Mingyi jie for th "baojianyuan" [: I felt so much better after that :D Was feeling rather happy , cuscus , "kuku" smile to me , th new collages keep smilling to me too [: andand , th customers ! :D practically everyone ! :D so I felt so happy actually ? haha ! that passed my day [:

After work , here comes my emotional thoughts . Well , I know what'll happen to say all that , but I still determine to say it . Is better to let him know then keeping it from him , making him even sad bahs , I'm sorry !

Meet up parents , makan , asked dad help me buy sat and sun 4D , hoping to win ? Actually , this isnt th main things ? I am actually using it to decide on something bahs . hais . Well , bought grandpa tml 3 years dead "accesorries" all that finally ! bought a amount of $24 /- Hope he'll like it of course . Is i use my paid to buy de lehs , ahgong mus be touched hor ! hahas . see , i bought him so much stuff! [: and ahgong , ur erhu , coming on th way :D hahahs !

so well , you can see , tml i going grandma hse to burn those things early in th morning . Then afternoon goin "stream" my hair ? . follow by night party ! :DDDDD Aunt promised to buy absolute vodka tml for celebration [: hahahs ! It should b a fun day perhaps!

Sunday , shopping with sis ? hahahs ! :D

If only we're really fated ..
If only miracle does exist .
And if only feeling wouldnt have fade so easily .
Andand if only i could have those courage .
I'm sorry .

#368 : I goin' crazy D;

2008-11-20T20:42:00.002+08:00

Second thoughts are ever wiser.
- Euripides

Well , I took leave today again . Th reasons are simple enough , I'm tired and sick of working because "kuku" was still angry with me , giving me that fcuking faces, simply spoilt my day ! And th boringness at work place , often drive me crazy ! D; so rest at home . Th whole day don't really have th appetite to eat anything . So ate very little . While , early morning spoilt 'shyshy' day , and I was affected too . I'm sorry . woke up at 10 ? and went to sleep at 2.45pm . Woke up , feeling so low ! D; Then , suddenly have th urge to pack th room , th drawer all that. Mood swingswingswing ! D; lalalas ~

Hoping everything will be fine ...

# 367 : Blow th sadness and dust away ! ><

2008-11-19T22:27:00.002+08:00

yoz , I'm finally back to blogging . Hahas ! Well , let go straight to th point [:

Satursday, wasnt in a good mood , as "kuku" angry with me over what i said to her on friday . so th day was spoilt! After work went to newton to have dinner[: ate about $70 ? hahas ! Then drank abit beer with dad [: and home ! :D

Sunday , yeah woke up prepared and headed to grandma house . Reached there fold 'jing zi' for ahgong 3years dead anniversary . Fold till tired ,went to ahma bed sleep [: sleep till about 5pm ? woke up , watch tv , hungry , fold th "jingzi" and headed to aunt house . eat prata reat awhile , headed down ikea ! :D first time go ikea actually . hahhas . yeah , then car sick ! )= home sweet home , sleep [:

Monday , "kuku" still angry me D; nevermind . Afterwork meet up 'shyshy' and end [:

Tuesday , "kuku" stil angry ! D; bought a dar chocolate for her as she like dark ones . It took me so much courage to say sorry to her . but yet she turned me down . Is just over i kidding with her , she say i sound serious and was angry ! Hey , it rare to see me say sorry to adults okay ! somemore apologize till so nice )= Couldnt hold back my tears , since she dont want th chocolate , i throw at th cashier there lor . then rushed to toilet . breathe in and out , tears drop down D; I dont know why too , felt so emotion ! )= then my day was spoilt )= my tears keep down . and my eyes was so waterly ? D ; i think may customers saw that )= thanks so much to Mingyi jie , she always brighten up my day [: mett up 'shyshy' ! :D

Wednesday , still still still angry D; nevermind lor . dont want talk to you also ! ><. so yeah , entertain myslef by wiping th die-cast . new colleages is here tdy , nicklet ? i dont know how to spell ;x hahas ! well , meet up 'shyshy' and just reached home :D end .

If only i could have more courage .

#366 : I'll remember , 22500911 ;D

2008-11-14T20:12:00.002+08:00

ohyes , wherewherewhere should i start lehs ? 5 days never post le , due to lazyness , busyness & tiredness ! :D hahas , should i go for detail or sumarry lehs ? hahahs !

well , a short sumaary of days then .....

Monday , meet up xavier after work then nothing much ? hahahs [:

Tuesday , meet up him again , then nothing much ? [:

Wednesday , take result ! :D ohyes , I'm promoted to 3E2 ! :D andand , i thought of appeal to 3e4 uhs , people scolding me "SIAO ! " hahas ! [: yes , got to chat with ms jaz [: she's busy even talk to me , i apprecaited it , thanks alot ! :D then , heard from benedict , mr ng ky leaving th school soon . so i asked mr ng uhs . then he admitted . result of transferring school as he stayed at east and now that his wife had give birth to a baby , he need to spend more time with her . woah , so sweet luhs ! mr ng , gentleman ! :D I'll always and forever remember you too , your motivation , your encouragment to us all this while , is all appreciated ! :D TAKECARES ! then , slacked n school with xavier , benendict and sheng thong till about 12noon bahs . shengthong uhs , stop teasing me luhs ? kill you ;x hahas, no ideas where to go after that . went home , eat maggi . then thought of catching a show at cwp with him . so yeah , took a shortshortshort nap and went out [: after that show , uhs , i dont know what's th story actually ! xxxx i'm blur kia ! [: well, saw chu de outside cwp , he wanna me donate ! )= $10 gone . hahahs ! nevermind . it rainned heavily uhs , so slack under my blk till about 8.45pm [: thanks so much ! :D sorry to make you felt hurt in th end . D;

Thursday , rather happy ? But everything seemed to be so quiet . ? meet up sis at bugis juction , change belts , eat mos burger and went home ? hahas ! well , told sis my decision le , hope everything will be alright [:

Friday , today , well , went to work as usual , wasnt in mood actually ? as in , i seemed rather pissed off ? tired bahs . and i rmb giving uncle ying yong , a not happy face ! keep starred at him bahs . who asked him keepkeepkeep irritate me ? hurt my feeling ! D; well , went off at 2.45pm tdy . can see very early right ? as i going health promotion board check up . ohyes , i weight 38.7kg with th height of 160.4cm [: hahas , i am fatter ? but i wanna be even fatter , felt i very thin suddenly bahs ? is time to put on moremoremore weight ! :D went home with mama after that bahs . bath , slp , wake up , watch tv , makan , computer , blogging and you can see , i watching tv later again and slp [: hahahs !

well , overall , i have make my mindset le [: I'm belong to one of a kind , happy go lucky! [: so, why should i let those thinking brings my mood dwn ? Now that i know how to laugh and smile , i will defintely find my happiness , or i should say , i alrdy found mine [: is november now right ? i decided to make everything to an end . put down all th past and move on with life . i wanna write a ending for th past , close all th chpt and start a new one[ : diedie before th end of this mth , i wanna do what i am support to do ! if not , there wouldnt be ending . december , should be a happy mth to close this miserable year ? i rmb started it happily , then went throught it hurtly and miserable , now , i wanna close this year happily [: next year , i wanna be th mingfen which i never ever know[ : i wanna study hardhardhard , i wanna be happy , i wanna do what i feel like doing , i know is just a matter of time management , i believe i can do it , nth can strive me down [: next mth , i'll enjoy chirstmas ? hhahs ! :D

people say "wang shi zhi neng dont know what wei" i understand this term , but i never wanna apply it . it means th bygones is bygones , when we think about it , we can only feel those memories but not to return . if i wasnt wrong ? hahas ! so is time to let 310607 , 2143hr memories ? hahahs ! :D th necklace , is just a memories , is th past , th receipe , yes i throw away le . cus th words all had been faded away ? hahs ! [: th "shagui " is just a guigui afterall , it dont bring 'love' . those packets and packets of milo , had been washed away ? and lastly , those memories which be faded away too [: rmb ? th past is like th dream we have whenever we sleep . it seemed so real , but is just a thought , not a reality . is nth wrng to think , but not let it affect ur presence moment[ : sososos , mingfen should understand this principal :D i promised you that i'll let go , mean i will . th ending of a story is th just th beginning of th new story ?[:

after so much nagging talked , is time i go decorate my chirstmas tress and santaclaus[: muhahahhas ! and help yongjun check something . hahahs ! lalals !

I'll remember th start of th romance , 22500911 ;D
what i care is now and not th future [:
This is when our love story began and will continue couting on :D

#365 : I come so far , and everything changed so lots .

2008-11-09T13:12:00.002+08:00

Nothing is impossivle, if you believe in yourself.
In life if you miss a few steps , keep on trying and move on.
Life is a miracle , not hundreds milion race .

The above text are from channel U show. Th story is about this guy used to join gang , quit primary school , fight , went in hoster , boy's home and so on . Then , he went to work at kbox as sort of waiter. Due to he have no education , he really need to wash th toilet . That moment of time , he remembered what his mum said . And he suddenly felt education is so important. So as a result , he went for night classes. He skip sec 1-3 education and straight away take his "n" lvl . HAlf-way through , he decided to give up , but thanks to one of his friend who had motivated him to move on . He passed his "n"lvl , then he took his"o" lvl . Education had never stop after that . He went to work , people depite him as he has th lowest education . So he continued studying at ngee ann poly . From there , he created a new life for himself . He started teaching swimming in school , fo th benefits of his schoolmates . Everyone is happy . And with all this , friend motvation , teacher encouragement , he's now studying in university and going graduate in 4 month time [: So this story really tells us that , we might be in th wrong path . but as long as we're willing to change , we still have a great future [: Interesting uhs ? [:

ohyes , 365 post le , which mean , i have post for 1 years ! [: okay uhs , it alrdy past 1 yr long ago ? okay,well , like changes alot . shall elaborate during end of year bahs[:

yesterday went to work having fear ? hahas ! but , i was touched by "kuku" . Every morning , she'll made it an effort to buy me breakfast de luhs ! and yesterday she bought me soya beans milk and curry puff . ji touched de luhs! hahas , so been working happily ytd luhs . everyone mood seem so good . just that i being nagged by uncle , for not eating this and that and bcome so weak ! D; meet up daddy and marmie ! [: walked around again . then blaja them eat th korean food ? they dont dare eat uhs ? then bought 10 chicken satay from tori-Q my treats again[: hahas . went home , bathe and sleep . so early uhs ? tired ma !

today , yes , gt a aim of course . i got to read finish my pschology book ! gonna return tml . tired ! zzz felt like sleepin again lehs ! howhowhow ? weak lah dey ! -.- hahas ! gonna ntuc with mam later ? i wanna buy fruits , got see wrong ? hahahs ! nan de i take initiative to eat fruits and more yeah ! :D ohyes , i suddenly have th mood of studying ? weird uhs ! i really wanna study hard le . i told mum i wanna read chines and enligh newspaper lehs ! and i even wan tuition ! siao lah dey ! hahas ! suddenly have sososo many aim . like learning musical intrustment , cooking , and judo all that [: siao ehs ! zzz . abit blurblur liao . falling asleep [:

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thanks everyone for spending time tagging yeah !
i'll tag you ppl blog whenever i can uhs ! really busy and tired !
sosososo SORRY ! )=
takecares alright [:

andandand LEON !
ITs isn't ur fault can ? dont say sorry , i dun blame you la dey . happy or not is ur chioce . its ur life . i can comfort you every moment you are down , but if you have th mind set to be sad , i cant help too . is still ur chioce at th end of th day , liek i said , is ur thought that brings ur mood down . so just dont think so much . th thoguth will be gone , so as ur emotion ? life seemed to be serious when you're down , rmb that ! when you're happy , you think ur life is wonderful , th ppl around is wonderful too . but when you're down , life is suck , only black and white all those negative thing yeah ! soso , STOP thinkign so much le . rmb howhappy you was once ? you can be as happy as before only if you want it to happen :D JIAYOU , i support you [:

#364 : I gotta move to move and be who i am ;D

2008-11-07T14:27:00.002+08:00

Mood overall : sucky ? ;x
post : summary ;D

tuesday nigth , went out to celebrate yong jun birthday ;D they went arcade . so i played psp tgt with xavier [: then about 10pm , went to haunt for a cake yeah . then walked here and there . lalals ~ hope yongjun like th cake anyway. it seemed so hard to eat uhs ? like rock ;x happy birthday once again ;D

wednesday , my mood totally sucky yeah ! dont have th mood to work , yet i went . so was sad in th morning . then , i rmb one customer scolded me over something ? it wasnt my fault ;x she said want , i mde her quarrel with her husband , then she whole night never eat , then make her tdy cant work in th morning and blah !~~~ then , afternoon self-motivate , felt better [: after work , got my paid for october de liao . $80 [: so help sis buy her dunnoe what satay . th facts is i cant find ma , talk to her nicely , she kpkb me ! i was extreme angry actually ! as i said , i paying for her , i walked so far buy for her and all that , sh totally show no appreaciation ! i hate you ! then , felt better , yet end th day being sad again ! )=

thursday , ohyes , thank so much for letting me felt so happy th whole day ! [: after tearing th price tag , is till so early [: so , help do this and that . after eating , i even help to clean th dust yeah [: then , bought th chocolate "mian bian" , harmonica , poker card home[: thanks uncle for wanna buy for me , but i wanna buy myself [: so yeah , "kuku" charge me $10 for total , cheap dao siao :D meet up xavier at control station then m,eet up leon at lot 1 [: as leon wanna buy his dad birhday present [: well , i felt its a waste of money buying that luhs ! cus is ex , and not worthy luhs ! lalalals ! hahas , but is th thought that counts bahs . happy birthday to his dad anyway [: then , bought dinner home[: xavier is so shy ! lalalallas!~

friday , yeah , today ! whats wrong with me ? woke up feeling extreme tired luhs . but still wanna go work , no chioce . so forcing myself luhs . but , i cried in th end . i really dun wanna go work ! so i hide myself outing th house staircase . stayed there for about 1hr . then , decided to go home . i'm sorry mom , for no answering all ur qns . i felt so depressed . i hate working ? due to th atmosphere i am in . and i felt , even if i dun work , you ppl might be scolding me or maybe not , i still feel so bad for not working . cus i shouldnt have take leave whenever i want just because of my moodswing bahs . sigh* sorry to bring you burden , worries and stress once again . i am such a useless daughter . hais . perhaps , i began to lost my conciousness again . and its dangerous !

Ohyes , i becoming weaker uhs ! ;x
how can i ? sigh*

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Thanks weili , hsin hui , kenneth , yongjun for tagging yeah [:
and specially thanks weili [: cause he tagged almost everyday luhs ! :D
appreciated :D

#363 : Don't give up ! Keepkeepkeep moving on [:

2008-11-04T19:28:00.002+08:00

The secret of staying young is to live honestly, eat slowly, and lie about your age.
- Lucille ball

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to ZHEN FENG , FABIAN & YONGJUN ! [:
Stay happy alright [:
May all your wishes came true , laughs*

went to work as-as-as usual ! :D Finshed tearing price tag by 10.30am andand i wondered how am i going survived ! Had nothing better to do yeah ! soso , asked "kuku" what i can do ! ZZZ She said just stayed at cashier will do ! -.- stay and stay ! bored me to death please! so i take th initiative to clean th table , pack nicely , check th battery if still got volt in it ma . finished everything [: then lunch time , eat full , then eat guave ! )x kept eating food uhs ! )= lalalas ~! then slacked on th way till 4.20pm , uncle let me off :DDDDD and he even sponser $50 for papa birthday celebration :D thank yeah ! chiong homehomehome ! [;

hahas , went limbang to eat . just ate curry fish head nia ? -.- then , drak a cup of heineken with dad [: lalalas , i hate beers ! )= is bitter de uhs ? hahas ! chiong down boguth cake and chiong home. who knows , they took th same lift as me ! -.- all my effort just gone like this ! f**kf**kF**K ! hahahs ! no vulgar , siamingfen ! [: so , yeah , i am home lor ! )=

andand , HAPPY BIRTHDAY in advance of 1 day to papa [:
old le uhs ! ahhahs ! xD

yuan lai , I'm NOT a strong person ! :DDD
andand , when i have setback , i choose to escape from realities {:
nice one , mingfen ;D

I choose to be single [:
It's th best , as I have no faith in being loved and love other [:
yeah ! :Ds

#362 : Th scene of countless bubbles ;D

2008-11-03T22:58:00.002+08:00

You are only one thought away from a good feeling.
- Sheila Krystal

Firstly , I had finally read finish th chpt ; the spearates feeling ; from th pyschology book . As I really hav no time or I am tired D; Well , I wanna read again , as I really dont know what i reading yea !

Woke up early as usual . Regret for sleeping late last night cause i am damn tired today ! Reached work place . "kuku" forgotten to buy my breakfast ! D; so went 7-elven bought sandwich . EWat till full full then start work ! :D removed return price tag {: tie till my finger pain pain luhs , furthermore with th hairdrying facing th finger . Is a way to remove price tag niccely . cause th heat from hairdying will melt th glue on th price tag [: my hand gnna be burn uhs ! D; "kuku" forgotten my lunch again ! zzzz okay , went to raffles hospital buy then . ex-ex-ex ! work and tired luhs ! then blahh ! :D brought "cutecute" to work tdy ! :D My dearest monkey :D that all ?

went to have dinner with 'somebody' . then went to th old place :D crazy over blowing bubble yea :D but i am lacked of oxygen . so felt giddy giddy de . yeah , sis rushed me home ! i'm freaking pissed off ! -.- lalalals ! i rather they dont care me can ! zzzzzzzzzzz

yea , thanks peoples for showering me concern recently ? hahas . and that is when i felt th kindness in them {: thanks YONGJUN ! & WEILI ! :D thanks for thosefreat words last night ! {: I'll continue to smile de :D thanks alot !

As day passes , i began to hate this home more and more . Whenever i was home , i felt so strange . As in , everything changes ? I no longer stay at living room for at least 1hr per day . yet , i spent most of th time keeping myself in th room . closing th door and usng com , sleeping ..... i hate this so much . i felt like there isnt oxygen . living my life in prison ! hais . when things happened , often it pull oneself relationship closer to another . but to be , yes , it seemed so near , not even a gaps . but in my heart , i felt , it was milion miles away from this place ! i am losing myself . i hate this . keeping secrets more and more deep in my heart ! well , i had decided to do it , and i know i am gonna suffered ! I dont know am i able to pull through it . if i really cant take it , i am gone , then too bad lor . but , if i pull through , i become another person . as in , a very positive ones and strong person ! as th proccess wasnt a easy one . i knew i am forcing myself to walk this path , yet i know walking this will heal th pain within them . noone will understand this kind of pain i suffering . yet i am able to be alright yea ! :D hais .

#361 : Well , all this while was a beautiful lies D;

2008-11-02T20:51:00.002+08:00

Loving a person is not because of his/her look or personality ;
but the feelings from your heart.
It's impossible that you are loving two person at a time .
From that two , only one you truely love .

well , a day passes so fast again . Woke up early in th morning , cause going out . Met up xavier , renhao and yongjun at lot 1 mac . The walked all th way to limbang mac makan . After that , they said wanna come my house . so yeah , bring them come . NOISE POLLUTION !~ ended up , we didnt discuss about class outing , instead playing game , downloading song . D; Mopped my room , then sent them to cck . But they hungry , so brought them to eat , on my treats ya [: Then , sent them to lrt , xavier went home . Then walked to my hse dwnstair playground slacked awhile to find answer. TT went home after awhile as I got to eat my dinner . lalalalas !~ ohyes , 'firstday' knowing yongjun caring and concern side ! :DDDDD not bad luhs ! yuan lai ni you ne me hao (=

Am i prepared to go for it ? It wont be a easy proccess. It surely gonna be hurtful and painful going through alone. But if i dont , i making those who cares for me to geel hurt within them, made them miserable, and th hatred will always be in their heart. I cannot be so selfish ! I said I would rather be th one suffering silently then other suffering with me . If doing all this could earse their pain , why not ? All this sacrifice will be worthy . BUT am I really ready for it ? Sigh*

When a person is sad, he/she definitely hope there would be someone listening to her sorrow. But when she looked around , she realised she was all aone crying in th rain . Suffering th pain and hurt all herself. She lost her way . Wondered whats more she could do ? sigh*

I just wanna you to be happy with or without me . I'll always rmb you as my closer friend ever. But is time you should pursue ur happiness. Thanks for th everything. I really enjoyed being with you. IS so relaxing and secure. But afterall, I'm just a replacement in your heart . True love dont come as they like , so they wont fade so easily too. I knew I'll lost you one day for sure , but you said we might not . Yes, it really happened a moment ago . I guess I had really lost you as friend. Either you or me , will be avoiding each other from now on ? However , I hope you two stop escaping from reality. Both of you are truely in love . I bless both of you [: Sorry to disturb your life all this while. Sigh*

Tell me everything will be alright can ?! D;

#360 : Drifting apart , I pray hard ! D;

2008-11-01T21:31:00.003+08:00

Confidence imparts a wonderfl inspiration to its possessor.
- by John Milton

yeah , I'm backed to post with half dead spirits ! ;D But with th presence of techno songs yeah ! [: It had been aged since I last hear techno songs uhs :D yeah , yesterday night was totally sucky alright D; butbutbut , today will be better than yesterday , and tml will be even better[: woke up feeling damn tired luhs ! bathe and so on , went out to work as usual O.x reached there eat a bigbigbig chicken buns with chocolate "mai bian" ! [: started workign ! :D removed price tags again . nothing to do after tha , so been slacking all th way :D andand , I'M SICK !! catch cold yeah ! then i was super cold actually . Aunty Mingyi and kuku asked me if i wanna go home marhs but i insisted to stay through . If not my paid will be gone half ? )= Cant afford to take leave le , if not i really be very poor luhs ! well , so throughout th day was at cashier collecting mone , put items into plastic bags and that all ? ohyes , of course was tv , chit-chatted . Thanks aunty mingyi for th great cares luhs ! :D Parents came to look for me about 5+ . Dismiss from work at about 6 ? hahas ! Then went to makan and went to buis streets . bought hoodies and 2 slogan t-shirt [: thanks mama for paying for me yeah , but i'll return you de [: went back to cck , went o 24hr coffeshop bought prata home to eat . and that all :D

meeting ppls tml to plan about class outing ! [: hahas ! exctied luhs ! :D
photos I'll uploads ASAP ! hopefully into another website alright [:

TAG REPLIED :
to everyone : thanks for tagging . kinda lazy toreply alright {: sry ! well, photo will be uploaded asap , class outing plannign in process . andand , th two pros , POH's family ! [: so late still haven sleep , power de luhs ! {: tkcares everyone ! :D

Everything seemed to be drfiting apart ,
especially my relationship with everyone .
Everything started to be so strange to me!
I felt like I'm leaving this world sososo soon .
Since an incidents happened not long ago ,
everything changes .
I became a person that faking a smile more often than having a real one .
I became so quiet , and I dont wanna say what's going wrong anymore !
As day passes , my relationship with my family drfited apart too .
I dont know how to face them ?
I dont know what to say to them ,
I dont know what i should do .
I dont know how to move on with them .
I really dont know !
We might seemed to close , and yes i know they love me alot !
But I hurt them deeply , such a disappointment !
They migth seemed to be pretend everything is alright ,
but once somethign had happened , it cannot be PRETEND !
Th hatred in them , those hurts and pain they suffering now ,
is all because of ME !
I hate myself more and more , that i dont wish to see myself again !
Having th thoughts of slashing , punching th wall , burn myself !
Yes , i do know all this acts just show how childish i am ,
but thign are gettign beyond control .
Been bearing all th problem in my hearts ,
thos silence tears , those pain , those secrets ,
i wondered how long can i suffered ?
I really hate myself ! I'm sorry for being such a useless daughter as well as a human being ! D;

#359 : second 2E1'08 CLASS OUTING !!

2008-10-31T20:41:00.002+08:00

ANNOUCEMENT !
class 2E1'08 : laughter and joys ! :D
listen up , we having a second outing ! {: high right ?
this time round , is plan by yongjun and me . we both need more ppl to help up yeah !
so ppl , volunteen lehs , hahahs ! :D

organises shall be :
- YONG JUN
- XAVIER
- HEMA
- REN HAO
- and me bahs .
more volunteen pls ?

venus : will be under my block bigbigbig shelter uhs .
people : teachers , students and of course parent who wants to tag along [:

games : bigbig bonding like blow wind blow ? and more of course .
food : buffet :D

date and time : 16 nov [sunday] ; whole day :D

more enquires tag at my blog , msg me or whatever yea ! :D
you can also contact yongjun [:

have more ideas pls , 2E1 !
must be a fun events alright ?

stay united together[:

#358 : As we go on , we remember [: 2E1;08 rawks th whole world :D

2008-10-31T12:56:00.003+08:00

A great secret of success is to go through life as a man who never gets used up.
- Albert Schweitzer

class outing !! :D
yups , yesterday was 2E1'08 class outing @ east coast park ! [: early morning woke up , meet xavier under my block . cause he carrying my ballball for me ! :D thanks so much . reached mac , hema was already there ad eaten ! fast luhs ! then , muh'sin , renhao , yongjun , kenneth , ronny , shengthont and dont know who was there too . bought hotcakes meal for breakfast , and they dare me to eat finished ! cause they say i surely cant eat finish one ! so , i diedie also must eat finish yea ! but i left half th hashbrown cant eat le , if not gonna vomit! )= with xavier went aroung to find birthhday cake for kenneth and yijing . their belated birthday cake SMASH ! :DDDD muhahahhahahs ! lalalalass ~ hmm , waited at th control station for about half an hour yeah ? then finally get to embark our journey ! {: huray ! lalals! took train to enous then bus down . was actually quite afraid yea ? as i was scared to bring them to th wrong place ! cause i dont really remember how to go , so is testing of my memory ! :D allals .

east coast park ! :D
finally reached , adn we rent 16 single bike 1 double bike , shiok uhs ? then free 1 hour and a free drink . but uncle scopian free us another 1 hour . so total $6 for 3 hours , shiok uhs ? hahas . then i ride super slow tgt with xavier bahs . cause we lead behide de ma. hahas ! :D then connie and miaoyu cycel double bike abit slow uhs? hahas . half-way through , yongjun called me , so i returned back to find them [: lalals ~ ended up like all separate ? ahhas . then ended up at beach playing own games uhs ? so me and xavier went back to locker to take volleyball. hahas ! butbut , didnt expect to WALK so long ! )= if know earlier , we would have ride th bike instead ! ahhas , thanks shiting for helping me to take in th end . :D was hungry , so went to find soemthing to eat . Rafhanah called me , she was like very pissed off ? due to everyobne is like doign own thing , then dont have th feeling of class outing . so i was really sorry luhs . then i faster went back looked for her . UHS , my ball stuck on th tree ?!! sobsob* ahahs . then they very funny luhs , throwthrowthrow , hoping th ball will come down eventually . ended up renhao rackets was up there too , but lucky it come down [: thanks a uncle for helpign me to take down yea . thanks so much ! :D was playing halloween cards with rafhanah , renting and xavier . play till abit boring ? is time to return bike . so packed thing , and move . cycle double bike with miaoyu ! [: quite fun but is very hard to ride too , uses alot of energy uhs ! :D hope you have fun, miaoyu :D hmm , then return bike , waited for yijing , jinxiu , jess and hsin hui there . while other move on to beach {: finally all reached tgt with some 2e2 students yea [: went to beach , played volleyball awhile . then took photos {: then , went down th water with connie and xavier . dont know throw me down ? )= lalals . all bullies ! eek! hahahs ,. then i sabo ppl down too {: lalals !~ th hsin hui and th kaisheng uhs , keep disiao me ? lalals ! ahhas , but have fun down there , more and more ppl came down afterward . {: is time to wash up ! {: make annoucement {: then smash cake on th 2 birthday boy and girl {: allals!

walked back to took bus 966 , some went to took train {: long way to bus 966 uhs ! hahas , have a nice chat with yijing and shengthong ? hahs ! decided to catch th "coffin" at lot 1 9.25pm . with 16 people yea ! {: funfunfun ! th whole row behide and 2 infront {: total of $128 yeah ! after that went home {: wasnt in mood to work actually ?

to make this class outing a successful one ,
firstly , i wanna thanks xavier for th ideas yeah ! :D
secondly , i wanna thanks renhao for organising th game and th timign all that.
thridly , i wanna thanks hema for th printing th paper all that ! [:
lastly , i wanna thanks ms geetha. though she cant make it , but i know she tried her best yeah ! :D

then , i wanna thanks th following ppl for attending yea ! :DD
Rafhanah , xavier , ameer , renhao , shiting , huimin , tommy , miaoyu , muhsin , leon , connie , hema , stephanie , ronny , yongjun , kenneth , jeremiah , joshua , yijing , jinxiu , jessica , weili , shengthong , renting .
while , did i lost one person out ? tell me alright , as i got sstm !

andand , I wanna say sorry to all, as i didnt organise a proper one . As some of th people find it boring and left out too . I'm really sorry !

More outing for 2e1 for sure? ms geetha birthday on 13 nov , and we plan to celebrate on 12 nov th result day. issit alright with everyone ? but got to collect $1.50 each we buy a big cake yea ! :D so people pls cooperate . th money shall be collected by ...... i have no ideas yet ! xx

TODAY ! woke up at 6.47am , with th thoughts , i dont wanna work ! so should i go anot ? been thinking . but since i no mood for work , what for going ? it'll only make my mood even lower . so told mama that my whole body aches . so she called uncle said i fever and gastric so take aday leave ![ : really dont feel like working for th next 2 mth le bahs ? so shall see how then . is a holiday , i dun wann my holiday ended up to be so stressed ! D; so maybe i could work till end of november better than till chirstmas yea {: but less income of course ! butbut , i am able to learn more thign , have more time ! {: i still got loads of plan de okay ! ahahs ! {: slack at home all th way ? going crazy yea !

p.s : photos shall be uploaded th next post {:

TAG replied ! :
pohweili : my daddy ar ? someone lor ;x
Hell's Mind : hellos {; thanks , btw , who are you uhs ?
Moop : hellos ! :D
YIJING : ohyesyes , i know you definitely will miss me yea ! {: then put my picture as ur hp wallpaper alright ? and i'll marry you tonight ! :D
HTR94 : yo , so early wake up uhs ? good mornign btw ! :D hahas , now afternoon le uhs !
YongJun : sure , why not ? not one more , but many many more ya ! cause 2e1'08 rawks all th way ! {{:

#357 : Why am I always forcing myself ?

2008-10-29T23:39:00.002+08:00

Realised something missing ? yeah , today there isn't any words on top , as I'm extremely tired ! )= As usual , woke up early , went to work . It wasnt a good day for me. Something happened ? Actually no big deals , till someone talked about it . Th sence of emotion came upon me . I felt like crying , yet holding back th tears . Went to toilet , read msg from someone , i dropped a tear , but cheering myself. Kept telling myself to be stronger , not to cry & cool down . After that , removed price tagged . Been thinking why am i working over there . As I wasnt a person that like to stay indoor , but love outdoor instead ! [: I can tolerate having a difficult job , but not a boring indoor job . With th amount of stress to carry , th coldness of th atmosphere , how long will i stayed there ? Since th starting , I already have no intention going back to th place to work . With those kind of thinking , i often forcing myself to do what i hate ! D; hais .

Meet up 'daddy' as usual at cck control station . Thanks for carrying things for me [: Then he waited downstair while I went home bathe [: went to find him , and went to makan . It was so relax being with him ya [: i bought bubble , and I talked alot of endless stroy with him . But he got to go home at 10.43pm )=

came home , pack things for tml ! (= important date ! CLASS OUTING ! :D shiokshiokshiok , i must be extreme happy tml okay ? ;D hahahs ! and surprise 2 person :D who th lucky ones ? hahas . It gonna be fun ya ? after class outing , going catch a show with xavier , renhao , kenneth, yijing they all ...... [: shiok uhs ! :D put all th stress away first ! :D time for relaxing! {{: 2e1'08 rawks all th way ! :D

Tagged replied ! :
Moop : hhahas, is okay :D
Yijing : of course i gonna miss you f**king loads uhs ! :D
xiao.lance : hahas , tell you something tml {:
weili : thanks ! :D
YongJun : hahahs ! [:
Leon : SMILE*

#356 : a brand new start again ?

2008-10-28T23:21:00.002+08:00

A man's doubts and fears are his worst enemies.
- by William Wrigley , Jr.

have a bad slept last night ! )= couldnt sleep after hanging up calls . forcign myself to sleep . yet midight kept woke up )= and when i fianlly get to sleep peacefully , alarm rang , and it reminds meof working today ! )= woke up at 7 , do this and that , not feeling well )= well , still went to work . And thanks somebody for waking up earlier just o pei me msg for a while [:

reached working place , i was like blurblur one . saw "kuku" then she ask me eat le ma . then i said haven .and i not feelign well . then she make a cup of chocolate "mian bian" [: thank uhs ! learn to work as cashier . hard time learnign ya . there is so much to remember ! )= and i kept pressing th wrong one . th whole day i almost taking care th cahier alone ! )= then i even pls th price $330190 see . power ma ? )= yeah , i even learn to pick up calls . then is like i blurblur de also . it wast easy ya . but i hav faith to work even better :D yeah , is boring day , so i hep to change th modal car boc and fix th car {: yeah , funfunfun ! saw andy korkor {; shuai dai le ! took home some stuff and yeah . went to meet 'daddy' at control station .

thanks for carring th heavy stuff for me luhs ! and thank for th accompany !:D walked home , bath and change . then meet him agian :D went to playground and slacked over there . was wishing to see a star, but not a single one appeared. butbut , is really sweet andth sence of relax and peacefulness ! :D went home at 10.36 after that .

came home played th "halloween" cards with sis . ask it was introduced by my uncle . new store ! :D he said veyr fun luhs. i tried with "daddy" just now too . it was boring playing with 2 person . but will be fun playign with more :D waiting for classouting yea ! :D will be bring volleyball , shuttlecork , bubble , my cutecute monkey, camera ! , flying disc that all ? hahahs ! lookign forward !

ohyeah, cousin asked me followed him go for exhibition at east coast park for HBI on 8nov which is a satursday ! to give out balloon! ji shiok de ar ! {: somoremore is part of workign too ! :DDDD

I'll fall for you eventually ;D

#355 : certain things , time don't heal -

2008-10-27T14:00:00.003+08:00

Happinesss is never stopping to think if you are.
- by Palmer Sondreal

well I had finished reading th principal of separate realities last night . It's about different people have different view. example at this cafe, there is a women wearing a hat. Then , th waiter said to another waiter " woah ! she look so hot with th hat on her " This had been overheard by two person . A said , this 2 person are being sacratic and is critising th women . BUT B said , no , this 2 person are actually prasing that women . From this situation , both are seeing th facts in their owm view , but they are have different way of thinking . If this argument continue, it might be irratating or annoying . But if you can take it as a separate realities , you'll be able to find it interesting and will have more to share about it . Nobody thinking is always similar to one another . Yeah , this is about th principal of realities . Hope you people can understand .

Hmm , so far I had covered th principal of thought , moods and separate realities ! {: Few more chapter to go . Th next chapter will be "th princiapl of feelings" isn't it interesting ? hahas ! :D got to read faster !hahas! :D

Tmr start working already ! [: Good or Bad ? both actually . Good as in , it kills time and can earn money! :D Bad as in , I got to wake up early , sleep early and way down bugis! zzzz Hahas , no chioce , got to work harder ! {: This time round , I promised myself not to slack so much and to be serious at work all th time , or at least most th time pls! [:

Is a boring monday isn't it ? Furthermore is public holiday , how can i survive my day at home ? sososo boring pls ! Let find something to do yeah ! :D ohyes , HAPPY DEEVALI to all indians yeah ! {: hahahas . thats all for th day ? lalalas ~!

STOP driving me crazy will you people ?

#354 : th principal of separate realities -

2008-10-26T15:06:00.002+08:00

We don't see things as they are,
we see them as we are.
- Anaise Nin

yeah , back to post ya ! :D early morning 3 sms , xavier , renhao and leon . hahahas . as usual , leon msg me good morning ! -.- hahas . woke up at 11am {: bathe and went out for breakfast plus lunch ! {; 3rd uncle treated us again to th plaza th don't know what shop . th beside i.p zone de . chinese restraud bahs . hmm , eat till full full ! ;D i love th "xiang bian" is a chinese tea bahs . then went to walked around . and i wanna buy volleyball . so uncle bougth for me ! {: yellow wilson volleyball ! {: thanks uncle ! :D then bought loads of bread from fourleaves , which coast us $15 . uncle treated too . thanks so much ya ! :D then drove sis to tuition and headed back home . Chit-chatted with uncle alot about working matters . "ren bu ke mao xiang !" -.- is a shock to hear all that , and i felt that working is so scary , you wont find true friend over there . everone is like fighting for position all that . well , that's about life bahs . thanks uncle for increasing my paid to $40 :DDDD ahahas , yeah , uncle still at my home ! {:

later going aunt house to see th 2 cute "baby" hahas ! then watched money not enough 2 again . i guess it'll be fun hopefully ! [: yeah , screams ! :D

okay yeah , i shall start reading th chapter on th principal of separate realities then write a review again ! {; hahas, i'm in love reading pschology book le bahs ! {: cause is so amazing to find out why you have this kind of thoughts and is all about daily life ! {:

TAG REPLIED :
Weili : hellos , always you tagging my blog ! thanks alot ya ! but you don't need sleep de ar ? siah lah , ni zhen de hen pro luhs ! {:
HTR94 : why you name urself HTR ar ? hahas , anyway , thanks for tagging ! :D
YIJING : hahas , seriously it is nice luhs ! {: go lehs , later i will miss you fcuking much de lehs ! ))=
MOOP{hazel} : yo ! hahas, thanks for tagging ya! you're welcome {:
YONGJUN : hey , there's always many side of me . acting cute is for fun and sort of entertainment {: i can be very mature when it come to serious thing yeah {: so dont judge me just by my daily attitude :D cause you'll never know ;D

#353 : th principal of moods .

2008-10-25T20:44:00.002+08:00

Time cools ,time clarifies; no mood can be maintained

quite unaltered through the course of hours.

- Thomas Mann

yeah , second post of th day . i had finished readin th principal of thoughs as well as th principal of mood . let me share with yu about th principal of mood .Our mood changes up,down,up,down every minute and everyday . mood is unstable because our mood is like running . we can get extreme moody and we can be extreme hpyer . We'll always see life snd th events in i differently, in different moods. When we're moody , we get thing seriously! And we try to think, figure, or force our way out of it . The more force you put into it, the lower you sink . Everything looks different in different moods. If we understand this principle, our compassion for ourselves and for other increases dramatically. Solve thing when you're in a better mood , because you'll have a better desicion . instead of solving it in a bad mood , you'll make thing worser ! yeah there's about th pschology book {: believe me , ou'll be amazing with th answer . is about what you do daily , wont you be interested ? ask me th book title if you're keen in ! :D

just came back from ah ma house . drink a few slip of beer and ytd drink th 8% vodka . hahas , shall no drink so much alc ! :D hmm , i dye my hair le , is chocolate brown now . not too obvious but still can see th colour. well , nothing much actually ? however , i wann thanks "him" for being by my side always ! thanks alot for supporting me and listening to me bahs.

CLASS OUTING ! okay uhs , RENHAO make a mistake ! -.- dont need to bring lunch , is optional? cus there got mcdonald all that luhs ! -.- haiyoyoy ! then yeah , bring ur games equiment !! rmb this coming thursday , 30 oct alright ! {: call me if there's more enquires ! {{: or msn me @ fen_sillypig@hotmail.com :D andand , i watching "th coffin" after that , who wanna tag along lehs ? hahahs ! :D must enjoy hor , 2E1 !

somewhere over th rainbow , you'll see my soul over there ;D

#352 : Let it fills with laughters ! :D

2008-10-25T12:34:00.002+08:00

Courage is resistance to fear,

mastery of fear;

no absence of fear.

- Mark Twain

ohyes , satursday once again.
school had offfically end th last 2 day . times flys so fast . remember th first day of school , thinking WOAH so have a long way to go . and is with a bunch of stranger in class . then as time passes , this class , 2e1'08 , was so wonderful ! remember th "china gang" thencame to our class for 1 weeks ? they said we are a class of laughter and of course we are talketive with all th nonsence ! {: seriously , i guess th whole class loving one another more , as we bond closer and closer . Our class spirits became stronger too . we dont shoot thing out even when teachers asked about it . is like so amazing luhs! an of course th teachers , that tolerate our craps and attitude . it was never easy teaching our class . moreover having th thoughts that we are th best class so our attitude no1 . but i guess when you teachers teaches our class your thoughts became to change more rights ? sorry if we had disappointed you teachers . lalalas ~! this class and th teachers are so great ! especially ms geetha for giving us ACT and not to forget mrs goh who had been with us half th years {: thanks fo much to everyone of you ! :D

let's have some reflection ! :D went so far , come so far ! :D a year gonna end in about 2 mth time ! i gain more maturity as time passes . friend came in and go . a friendship that was once very close for a moment of time had been ruin by me . so there's nothign much i could say about it. it was never a easy road for me so far . having lots of problem challeges me . i had never thought i could pull through it . th worst thing happened to me recently , and i actually could maintain smiling ! {: it seemed liek i really jhad grow up more mature . and is because of all this that had happened , i realised who care for me and who dont . from all this , i found a guy which have th same thought as me ! i had did alot of thing this year , like outside cip , learn to bake chocolates , and i did quite alot bahs . i get to motivate myself more and ppl around me . i get to know what i like and what i dont like . i finally have aim in life . and i know where i am going from here . after all this , i learn to be more clever , and stop being so stupid or silly ! i should know what is right and wrong by now! is always great meeting up old firend and share th pass joys . this years was really challeging for me ! i gain alot and i lost alot too . i see my smile finally , even without having BGR . i move on in life even with lots of setback ! friendship problem was my worst problem , which i had never ever knew it till recently . wahtever ya , i had went through evrrything ! {: now that i am moving on , let th bygones be bygones . for th next 2 mth , i am going to workworkwork , learn piano and guitar maybe drums too . do more CIP and voluteering work! {: learn to bake chocolate , cookie , desert , and lots more !! th best of all , being able to learn swimming pls ! -.- before i drove ! ))= hahahs !

woah , i type alot uhs ! hahahs ! plan to dye hair later ! ohyes , i rmb what shaun said about my name ! he said my name represent ming tian jiu fen shou ! ))= then i jitao sad de lah, but is like so creative ! :D better than saying my name as meefen -.- hahas ! where am i going later ? is a boring satursday cancancan ! ohyes , i changed my blogskin as you can see right ? give some comment to make it a better one . or tell me if it's nice or sucky alright ! :D

ohyes , CLASSOUTING . hmm , if you wanna play badminton, pls bring th equiment alirght ! :D thankyou ! bring extra clothes or not , is ur chioce . at th most you're wet ! hahahs ! :DDD

#351 : wanna you as friend forver {:

2008-10-24T20:25:00.002+08:00

We all live with th objective of being happy ;
our lives are all different and yet th same .
- by Anne frank

yeah, woke up and went to meet th two "pervertic" !
they two ar , i meet them 9.40 and 9.45 am .
both reached so early then say i slow! -.-
no link lah dey .
somemore i didnt late lehs . i only reached thr by 9.41am nia ma .
th 1min is because th lrt th clock abit fast la dey ! hahahs !
so i am sososo innocent one okay !
reached school is like so early ! 10am only ! -.-
so in class with th 2 pervertic! {:
till got ppl come in th class , then play poker cards with them {:
hahhas , yeah i am mingfen , surely win de ma ! {: hahahs !

then get th result , scrae till zzzz
but i wasnt sad uhs , th result till okay bahs ?
so yeah , i got th same mark as jess , and i was shock .
cus i thought i will failed and so on de bahs .
not really have faith , but i believe miracle ! :D
th result :

if you can see , it will be great ? hahahs !
ohyes , thanks hema for printing th class outing paper of course !
appreciated luhs !

went off with jiaying to plaza .
since th guys dun wann follow us . then nvm uhs !
then walked around .
went library , then oscar , alvin and gangyi came .
went to ljs makan they see us makan -.-
then they went off ya ! :D
hahas !
then soonie laogong said wanna come find me luhs ! {:
but he got sore-eyes luhs !
recover fastfast okay ?
he'll be tranferring to my sch soon !
hyper ! hope he can get in of course !
goodluck yeah ! :DDDDDDD
then he went off .
tgt with jiaying , i went to walked ard .
then went mini toon bought this monkey !

cute hor ?
who dare bully me , he will protect me ! :D
late ri make him beat you ppl uhs ! :D
he know boxing de hor!
maisiaosiao ! {:
then went library use com .
then blhablah !
hahas , went home at 3pm :D

yeah , nth much le .

this pic is by me and aaron ng ! :DDD

our lame'd act , but is really fun ! {:

can see th smiling face ? hahahs !

class outing !

yeah , comfirm next thursday alrdy .

find more activity and inform me ya !

- cyling/ rollerblading .

- flying disc

- badminton

- volleyball

- waterboom

- fishing { by kenneth uhs ! by he kidding one uhs !}

- bowling { kenneth suggested ! } [=

hahas , think of more games ?

th flying disc i will provide , but who wanna play ?

so i know t buy how much . hahahs !

then , yah , you ppl find more activy !

i dun wan ppl bored to death luhs !

after that , going watch "th coffin" ! {:

who wanna join me watch ?

is horror of coure ! :D

yeah , 2E1'08 rawks ! :DDDDDD

#350 : thoughts are just thoughts {:

2008-10-23T20:54:00.002+08:00

Live as brave men ;
and if fortune is adverse,
front its blows with brave hearts.
- Cicero

Last day of school ! :D
hyperhyperhyper! :D
woke up early tdy but reached sch th same old late . hahas .
in class talked craps and so on .
then went to 2e4 watch shriek 2 {:
but i was msging and slping .
then process to canteen for prize givng .
from there go reccess .
then bring thing go back class makan .
then play pokercard with jinxiu they all.
jinxiu lost quite alot ? ;x
hahas .
then cleaned up th class all that .
i said i wanna interview ms geetha she was like HUH ?
ahhas! :D
then , she told me i actually can get th cip award! -.-
then i told her, ya i know .
then she tell me she forgotten to submit , then i rpely her , ya i know .
last yr also like that , actaully can get top for cip de , but late submission -.-
totally sian manymanymany !
then played 'blow wind blow' in class .
fun luhs !
then dismissed ! {:

went to plaza with jiaying and leon .
slacked till 3pm .
went home .
sleep and end :D

CLASS outing !
next thursday {30oct} meet 9.30am at lot 1 mac if you wanna eat .
meet 10.30 am at control station then go tgt .
wash up at 5pm .
any enquires ask me or renhao , thankyou ! {:

#349 : Don't mix "reality" wth "thought" ! ;D

2008-10-22T22:12:00.002+08:00

All that you achieve and all that you fail to achieve

is the direct result of your own thoughts.

- James Allen

yeah , day 2 of drogon boat ! ;DDDD
woke up having th tought of not attending .
but someone said is once in a lifetime , it would be fun !
so tagged along yeah ! :D
woke up , get prepared and went out .

meet up xavier at lrt station {:
then meet up with leon .
ohyeah , i receiveed 5 same msg form different ppl ya .
regarding on friendship de .
i dont like sendign this kind of msg de ,
but it doesnt mean i dont treat you ppl as friend uhs !
so get th facts right , okay ? :D
is a sweet and touchign msg somehow yeah , apprecaited :D
thanks leon , renhao , xavier , rahfanah and ameer for th msg :DDDD
yeah , waited jiaying to come mac first :D
while leon send me th whole JJ lin album songs , thanks alot ! {:
finally she reached and we went to buy our breakfast ! {:
went off to school at about 11 .

reached school , went to find ms jac , as i meeting her :D
then , we talk about 30mins ?
i asked ms jac to let th 3 people come in {:
since we had change topic and this topic should be a open one! :D
when they came in , xavier say i siao de lor ! ))=
nvm lor , sad liao lor , ahahs ! but is okay la dey ! {:
then they talked , i listen , while writting somethign on th board .
i wrote "thign dont have to go right before we can be happy"
& "dont mix reality with thought"
& " after th rainstorm , there'll always be sunshie!" {:
hahahs! yeah m went off at 11.46 ? which is late for assemble !
went to tolet with jiaying ! :D
ended up , i sit behide and join th others lor .
kana put into other group for drogon boat ! ))=
i jitao sad dao siao ! D;
but is fated luhs ! is okay {:
but , my group not bad uhs , quite pro also ma .

reached changi ,
get prepared all that , and headed off to drongon boating ! :D
yeah , i jumped down th water ! :D
without knowing how to swim of course .
but is like so fun luhs !
then i dun even feel like coming up!
is shiok de lor !
even if i going drove , "SOMEONE" gonan save me de right ?
th person promised de , hahas ! {:
got our 3 raced , and my group win 2nd .
so yeah, donnid to move t boat up ! {:
washed up after that.
went back :D

yeah , reached school .
went to makan with leon , jiaying and renhao.
since leon dont wan eat right , for whatever lame reason !
so i blanja him uhs . i anyhow buy something and force him eat ! :D
see i so good rights , maisiaosiao !~
xavier , yuheng and jiahao came afterward .
walked separeated way then meet up at library again .
jiaying went home first .
yeah , leon and renhao kana influence by me! {:
they actually borrowed psychology book too ! :D
good uhs ! then leon went off first .
yeah , in th library they very noisy luhs !
haiyoyoyo ! but very funny la dey ! {:
went off at about 8.40ppm .
wanna catch th 9pm show :D
so cabbed home ! {: ahahs !

end , home sweet home! :D
class outing will comfirm th day with you ppl tmr bahs !
sorry ya , as pp cant make it . so got changes !!!

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#348 : Is always sweet when thinking about th past .

2008-10-21T19:00:00.002+08:00

"thing don't always have to go right before we can be happy"
from th psychology book , you can be happy no matter what

woke up at 9+ then went back to sleep again.
about 11am , a msg from shaun .
okay uhs , shall wake up then .
prepared all that , meet him 12.30 at phoenix busstop {:
decided to wear dress is a big WRONG ;x

yeah , he change alot uhs , even more style luhs ! {:
so "shuai" ? hahahs ! :D
first time go out with him alone , was rather sian too .
i was like hungry and he dont wanna let me eat luhs !
so he purposely go plaza sing ! -.-
so alright , reached there , actually wanna catch a show , but no show to watch ! )=
went to buy popcorn chicken to eat after that .
walked here and there .
decide to walked aroudn ! :D
so walked to the cathay .
then form there to th dont knwo where .
then walked pass little india .
then walk pass sim lim square .
frm there go busig street , junction and th opps there {:

well , it was not boring at all bahs .
cus he really can talked alot of story .
and is like so interesting luhs .
and about th past , i'm sorry uhs ! D;
maybe i have th curse , not having a stead that can last more than 1 mth )=
then he say about this and that .
funfunfun ! cus i learn alot from him tdy ya .
and even say , 80% of guys like girls with long hair .
which is i never ever knwo it de uhs ! {:
actually he helping me to choose belt , but cant find one which is nice .
he will be my styling teacher {: hahhas !
he got alot of taste luhs ! ENVY ! )=
then way back , in th train he teach me some skill for self protection .
hahahas, thanks also uhs ! :D
then he talk about bible , and about th thing around .
INTERESTING ! :D
hope to go out with him more uuhs ! {: is really so great uhs ! :D

yeah , i'm sorry t someone yeah .
soryr to make you broke down .
i am trying to cheer you up , but yet i fail .
i'm sorry !
LPZX

yeah , tml drogon boat ,
thursday last day of school .
friday report book .
sat - no plan .
sun - no plan
mon - deepavali ; no plan .
tue - CLASS OUTING ! :DD
wed - start workign D; nono , should look forward uhs !

and here come mingfen , wanna get fatter !
i dont wanna be so skinny le , is look so sucky bodoh ! ;xxxxxx
hahahs ! :D

is time to have a change in style too {:
and more plan for th holiday , wooohoooo !{:

sometime when we talked about th past ,
is often so sweet .
And we had th intention to go back to th past .
but in past , those day dont seemed to be sweet .
so maybe that is life bahs .
is about how you look into a matter .
those bees had dead , but leaving th honey all this while .

#347 : 我爱上的是他成熟的想法 !

2008-10-20T19:15:00.002+08:00

Creativity can solve almost any problem.
The creative acts ; the defeat of habit by originality .
- George Lois

yeah ! I manage to prank call two ppl last nhight ya ! :D
two boxim de luhs !
cause how can the forget my birthday ?
and i bluff then today is my birthday , yet they believe ! ><
smack you two uhs ! >< hahhas !
but they really sang birthday song tgt for me at 12midnight luhs .
ji touched de luhs ! :D
xiexieni men anyway :D
and they were so tired because i dont let them sleep til 12midnight ! :D
nice one SIAMINGFEN :D

woke up , yeah prepared all that .
headed to school after that yeah ! :D
andand , inter-class soccer for th day ! {:
no girls know how to play uhs .
but still got a few that wants to try {:
i join in th fun too .
and i scored 1 points ! :DDD
not bad uhs , first time play soccer lehs , and is like woah !
hahahs! fun ! i still wanna play !?!? ahhahs !

then after that is like , i slacked all th way !
and i not feeling well luhs D;

yeah , 2e1 win 3rd for inter-class games . nice one ! :D
but why th present is fruits ? ;x

went to look for ms jac afterschool .
together with jiaying and jannette .
talkd for about 1 hr .
then come out , edward walk toward me uhs .
then say what he my guitar teacher gonna teach me guitar yeah ! {:
hahahs, then asked me followed him go haven to listen to him play piano .
well , alright . hahahs! {:
then then , yeah , went to find th 2 girls.
and edward having o lvl later {:
hope his paper is fine tdy ya :D

makan at kfc {:
went library borrow book ! {:
hahas , have a hard time finding th book i wan bahs.
cause i wan psychology book ! -.-
and i found to about being happy de {;
i flip throught , quite interesting bahs .
hopefully i can learn some tips from there {:
went to comis connection bouht 2 pkts of straw .
and jiaying say wanna helped me fold 1pkt of star .
sure , why not . since i am lazy too .
and th stars . i dunnoe who to give ? keep it for myself bahs {:
hahahs ! :D went off after that .

bathe and sleep zzzz
woke up by msg-es and calls -.-
and is like i was so blurr , as i dream of something seem so real luhs .
that why i couldnt identify if i am still dreaming or wake up le . hahas !

hmm , got my fine for th drinking soya beans on th trains de liao .
got to pay $30 . suay ! -.-

class 2e1'08 !
yeah , hope everyone can go t outing yeah !
trust me , it gonna be fun !
th first and might be th last too .
at east coast park on 28/10/08 which is next tuesday ! :D
meet up 10.30am at cck mrt station .
and those who wanna eat breakfast meet up 9.30am at lot 1 mac {:
any enquires feel free to ask me , renhao or xavier bahs .
hahahs ! bring ur own food , drinks and extra clothes ! :D
SMILE ! [:

lalals , i will learn to love myself more alright !
be more sensible luhs , siamingfen .
stop being so dumb and silly le {:
get a life yeah :D ahahha !

#356 : Tell me why i suddenly felt this way !

2008-10-19T18:54:00.002+08:00

There is no poverty that can overtake diligence.
- by Japanese Proverb

yesterday slept late at about 2am ?
and i was extremely tired actually .
so today i slept till about 11 am .
woke up , do this and that , makan .
soon , went off to aunt house .

reached her house , nice renovation {:
her new house is like so nice actually .
but bored to be death bahs .
even though with th starhub channel ,
there isn't a nice show ! -.-
so i played psp and msging lor {:
it started raining heavily after that !
so went off to lot 1 for dinner at 4+ .

after eating , went home .
on th way , i saw someone .
then my mood went lalalla ~
i was thinking why too .
he was a person that i once contacted .
but something happened , from there we separeated !
hahas , why i see him , i become so emo uhs ?
siao lah you , siamingfen ! ))=

~~~~~~~~~~

yeah , i found someone i can share my joy and sorrow with .
he's someone that is with me all this while ,
but we dont get to know each other better .
till recently yeah ! {:
of course , i didnt say i like him !
is just that , is so rare to find someone that have th same thnking as me bahs .
so we have so much common thing to share about .
furthermore , his msg made me cant stop laughing at times too {:
well , maybe is we went through alot of thick and thin .
so we know how it feel and yeah ! :D
and is thing that we experience which lead us to become stronger too :D

#345 : I'm feeling great , lets have some party time ! :D

2008-10-18T22:59:00.002+08:00

The thing always happens that you reaaly believe in;
and th belief in a thing make it happen .
-Frank Lloyd Wright , US

yeah , i am fine already ya ! :D
i was damn tired last night .
sorry aaron for not replying your msg .
hai ni whole day cant sleep ? sorry ;x
8+ pei ppl msg till 10+ go sleep again .
supposed to wake up at 11 but tired , sleep till 1pm {:

wokeup , bath and msg again .
all th way till now still msging .
power ma ? hahahs !
first time msg so long uhs !

went out to chinatown with parents .
so boring uhs !
but get to buy colour hair de {:
my hair very black lah , like blakies .
must have abit brown then natural ma :D
bus home after that , very cold ush !
yeah end ? ahahhs ! {:

2e1 poeple !
listen up , me and xavier plan to have a bbq at east coast !
this comign satursday ! {:
so we can play over ther too .
a person got to pay about $4-5 .
as much as you can afford bahs .
but those who cant afford is okay .
just join th in fun alright !
this is th first outing and might be th last too !
so pull ur friend along uhs !
make sure th whole class ppl go hor!
if not SIAMINGFEN will emo de lah !
hahahs !

ohyeah , to 2e3 people .
i wasnt saying you ppl ya . just shoot at ulrica nia :D
so dont misuderstood :D

tag replied :
YIJING , uhs you blind ? i link you le lehs . nvm i change to put on top {: for ur sake , hahahs ! :D
Poh.huihui : linked you le :D
htr94 : hahahs . hellos :D
ulrica , : reply at ur personal blog {:

#344 : Courage is fear that has said its prayers .

2008-10-17T22:09:00.002+08:00

INTER-CLASS captain ball game {:
2e1 on th way !!!!!!!!!!! {:
thought i didnt got a chance to play th captain ball ,
but i wasnt angry or sad alright .
instead i am ahppy , as i am able to shout and shout ! {:
2e1 you can do it ! {scream }*
you're are th best alright , dont give up yeah .
thought we didnt get first , but we get second at least .
furthermore , is just a game .
it doesnt matter win or lose , but th process you ppl went through alright ! {:
2e1'08 rawks al th way ! {: i love you people ! {:
monday , our second round of interclass ,
you ppl can do it yeah ! jiayou ! :D

yeah, recently went through damn loads of thing .
i relaised ppl around me caring me so much bahs {:
xiexieni men .
thanks oscar , alvin , gangyi and norman for acc me after sch alright ! {:
and , thanks for th msg , gangyi & oscar {:
of course , th one i never forget , AARON {:
thanks for going work laterand acc me .
sorry to bring ur mood down too , thanks fr ur concern so much .
caused you to work till so late then can go home , sorry !

not t forget my real-blood sister! {:
thanks for supporting and helping me all th way .
dont blame yourself alright {:
you had did your best for th everything .
i'll be alright de .
caused i'm SIAMINGFEN , da bu si ! =P
andand , thanks th family for respect my decision bahs {:
at least i know , jiu suan wo yi wu suo you , zhi shao hai you ni men ! {{{;

yeah , that all for th day ! {:

#343 : still been stuck in th past ?

2008-10-16T13:31:00.003+08:00

People grow through experience if they meet life honestly and courageously.
This is how chareacter is built.
-Eleanor Roosevelt

been thinking weather to go school today anot .
as last night someone msg me luhs , then i was like wanting to go th mass run .
though i know it is not about running but walking and explore instead .
morning mama wake me up , then i realised my shoes is wet due to ytd drogon boating .
so decided not to go school instead .
but having th strong feeling of wanting to go yea ! )=
so is like th whole morning been regretting not going luhs ! D;

rotted on th bed till about 11am ..
woke up , do this and that .
was about to on th com at 12 .
when suddenly changed my mind to pack my thing first .
so busy throwing away all my books and paper {:
then clean up th mess all that .
about 1pm , finally switch on th com :D

while i was paking up my thing ,
i saw those little notes i worte when i was missing someone terribly .
then all th memory just flashback uhs!
i wondered have i ever let go of that relationship ?
it had been more than a years since he left me on 13 august 2007 .
our story began so suddenly ,
when i decided to go mac buy something on that paritcular satursday night .
we just met like this .
and we walked that path after a week on 300607 ; 2143 hr .
starting is like woah so wonderful , but it ended up with tears an pain within .
i might seemed to let go after a short while ,
but i couldnt forget all those little thing we did .
packets and packtes of different size of milo .
sending me home almost everytime when i met you .
you might seemed to treat me badly , but you're just so sweet .
rmb th carpark ? where there was th first time i tio 'screening' .
{i think i spell wrong? }
rmb those day and those act ?
i guess you dont .
because all this while , i am th one who are so serious about this relationship .
for you , i am just another girl that was once your tools .
everytime i passby th mcdonald , all i rmb was you .
everytime i drink milo , i rmb all those milo you given me .
everytime i saw th necklace you given me , i felt like crying somehow .
everytime i saw th "sha zhu wugui" i thought of you .
then i rmb you throw away th "ben zhu wu gui "
i kept th recipe i vought you th "wugui" still in my wallet .
but now , th words had completely faded .
and i guess , our love faded too .
i know we're impossible , and i guess i no longer love you too .
so do you ?
but , i don't knwo why th feeling was always there .
when it comes to you in my mind , i always felt so moodswing .
maybe , you're th one i am so serious about bahs .
however , i hope you'll be fine , and come out soon . sigh*

hmm , let chase away all those sadness alright ?
because mingfen's is once agian emo ? hahahs !
i still wanna go many places . who wanna accompany me ?
i wanan go zoo , i wanna go beach , i wann scream and shout like noone business ! {:
lalalalalalallalalalalalalalals~

yeah , i changed my song playlist le {:
form th total of 33 song now bcome 18 song {:
with more english song , and more hyper ones .
i delected quite alot of moody song , left just abit ya .
and got one song which i first heard it , i alrdy feel like crying .
th song is "shi fei luo zhu liu " by jay chou new album song .
soon , i will change my blogskins too .
hmm , really cant stand myself from being so moody le lah.
i wanna go beach . alone ? ahahhs !
which emo kia wanna pei me ?
faster call me lehs , at 92221494 [:
before i really went emo uhs ! )=
yeah , i will move on with life :D

#342 : let th oceans of water , wash away your sadness alright ?

2008-10-15T22:36:00.002+08:00

yeah , woke up 9.30am .
bath nd chiong out th house /
was wondering if jess rmb i meeting her anot .
but never had i thought she reach so early tgt with renting .
i am very sorry to keep you ppl waiting! ))=

reach plaza mac , omg !
everyone reached except renhao )=
sorry leon yeah !
then i treat , leon his WASABI filet-o-fish , eeyer . ~.x
i pei fu he can eat it down ! omg !
then buy 3 additional harshbrown for yijing , renting and huihui {:
yeah , wo sh hyper de okay ! :D

headed to ntuc bought 8pkts of sweetssssss ! {:
thanks for leon payng half tgt with me {:
treat th whole class ya ! :D

drogon boat !!!! :D
yeah , on th way to there , thanks XL for sending jay chou new album song to me hor ! {:
really thanks alot uhs !
as i just passs him th phone and he will settle sending xD
hahas , i like verybad , isn;t it ?
reached th changi dunno what beach ,
do this and that , listen to intrustion .
then finally can go down th oceans {:
i love my group actally , as we have teamspirits .
some 2e1 ppl tgt with some mixture class .
i love th intrustor , nigel {:
as he very friendly !
yeah , have fun in tboat ya .
but i was tired half way .
yeah , wash up time ,. everyone chiong toilet {:

then finished all that .
~~~~
took bus back {:
yeah, is giving sweets time ! {:
after a day , everyone is like so tired .
most slept in th bus yeah .
and i saw 'someone' sleeping so cute actually {:
ahahs . then took cab with jess home after tht .
bath and sleep .
received some call and msg .
and i talk like very fierce ?
i am sosos sorry , too tired le bahs .

woke up about 1hr later ..
watch th money not enough 2 . use com and now going sleep ?

tell me why , why am i so moodswing over nothing ?
why am i feeling so low ?
which wire went crazy again ? )=
hais , tml still got mass run at botanic garden .
wonder to go anot .
as my shoe wet , got to wear another pairs of it .
maybe i should sleep at home ? :D

#341 : No points crying over a spill milk ! {:

2008-10-14T20:14:00.002+08:00

arghhh !
what i am so stress about? ))=
got nightmare again as i wasnt in a good mood ? sigh !

yeah , got back results .
ceck through th marks and i sleep again .
i didnt really care comparing answer or marks bahs .
as in i felt no point compare marks , it will only made you even sad or happy ?
what is done cant be undone yea ?
so though my results suck to th core , but i'm not going to cry over a spill milk {;
that why rafhana was asking me why i liek so relax when my marks is like so low .
hahas. yeah , fail english once again . nice one mingfen ! {:
if i not wrong th class only i fail lehs ! :DD
pround to be a failure {:
yeah , i deserved it ya ?
i might be like keep mugging for so long , but my mind isn't there .
i was thinking of some problem that happened recently .
argh , blamed me for not concentrading bahs {:
so yeah , result turned to be like ths {:
well , for me , like is not about studying , but something else .
study is important , but character and attitude is much more important {:
because it's for life yea :D
from young , mingfen jiu bu xi huan study le ma .
everytime jiu shi pon sch , find all reason to avoid going sch .
then, slowly realised no education equal nth .
so work harder abit . but now it turn to be ahem !

heyhey , siamingfen . you not going be sad yea ?
cause report book still got ca1.ca2,sa1 de lehs .
still got hopes , must have confident alright ? SMILE !

okay uhs , then dismissed .
chitchated with crystal alot uhs {:
yeah, great to talk to you .
but you should have your own life , jiayou !

meet up arron again .
thanks for acc me mkan and play th shoot ball ball [:
yeah , get to play my bubbles again ! :D

hais , then mood went lalalals !
yeah , sleep .
skip my last lesson of tuition again ! ))=
woke up , feel like vomitting , not feeling well )=
and is like , my mood now kinda sucky ?
what goes wrong again ? smilesmilesmile !

yeah , i going work soon .
but i didnt get a chance to go out play happily yet .
who wanan jio me go beat ppl lehs ?
no lah, i actually wanna shop ?
hmm , i dunnoe bahs . but is time to let go everything and be a real happy person le .
i couldnt always 'fake' a smile , but i dun really feel so happy de ma .
so , i wanna cry everything out , shout it out !! :D

tml , going sch activites , drogon boat ! :D
meeting renaho and leon 10.30 at plaza mac .
my treat as apprecaition to thanks for teaching geo .
though my mark still like -.- butat least got pass bahs .
thanks lot !
well , i guess , crystal they all will be joining too ?
th more th merrier bahs :D

lalals , end ?
smile :D

tag replied to xueli :
hey , why say sorry siol ? what happened agains ?

#340 : a brand new ahead {:

2008-10-13T19:08:00.002+08:00

Do not go where th path may lead .
go instead where thiere is no path and leave a trail.

yeah , start my post with motivation yeah ! :D
these sentence was actually found at my room pasting at th wall,
as well as th school wall too {:

decided not t put it as a pirvate blog ,
however , not using sexychocolates anymore even though it is available now .
as i felt , it should be a brand new start bahs .
i will post what i like , but no about other life ? {:

afer all those thing that happened ,
i learn not to say about what other tell you .
i learn alot from this lesson .
so is time i should know what's right and wrong .

yesterday afternoon and night ,
thanks so much for aaron ng accomapany {:
if not i will be a lonely freak ))=
thanks for accompany me walk here and there .
guess , we have a fun time playing th shoot ball ball ?
hahas , and badminton as well as jogging .
ha's i am sorry not being able to run with you , as i am way too tired .
my stamina suck alot ya !
thanks for sending me home after that :D

today ,
wnen to look for junjie aiai .
then headed to oscar hse .
gangyi didntexpect us to watch horror movie agains uhs .
hwoever , i watched tiill wanna sleep zzz
boring ! then see them do pokercard magic till i blur uhs !
cabbed home after that .

rest for abotu an hours ,
suddenly , msg all come in a shot .
wth , my handphone sot le lah .
msg supposed to received earlier yet delay !
then is like important de lah .
and i felt so bad about it ! hais ))=

yeah , will be helping jack for a upcoming events {:
as well as he will be teaching me how to bake choolates , hyper ! {:

hmm , that all ?
forgive and forget {:
ohyeah , i hope you will be fine ya .
i dont wanna see you and you emo .
{refering to 2 guys}

#339 : i still rmb all those little cares .

2008-10-12T14:23:00.002+08:00

well , third post of th day le lehs !
mai siao siao ~ !

well , i suppose to ahte this group of friend alot isn' it ?
but i really never forget all those thing we went through tgt bahs .
i rmb choonhan was such a wonderful friend {:
she bought me milos when i am sad or whatever .
she skip classes just to accompany me in class .
she boguth tibits afraid that i will be hungry .
she cab me home , afraid that somethign will happened to me .
she showered me so much loves and cares that i couldnever ever get it from a friend .
hey , i really appreciated you alot .
but , we;re human beings , we do have imperfect times isn't it ?
we both met each other in a very worst situation .
whereby , i first knew you as a ttitude and step lian de girl girl !
hate you somehow ? and i spam your blog , th super childish act , you mei you ?
but , i got to know you more, you do changed alot .
and you are like a joker , never fail to cheer ppl de lehs !
when you're around , laughter fills th air {:
of course , you waited for me after my work .
hey , there is so much thing you did to me that i couldnt able to list all out .
i know deep in my heart you're great ! {:

then , xueli .
when we're in primary sch , our childih act .
nackstabbing one another . saying fined or dont friend.
but i rmb that day , you siad to ms cheng , best friend mean must tgt mehs .
i rmb you siad back to her , i see ur anger and how seriosu you're in this friendship .
you care abotu em so much too .
when i sad , you actually msg choonhan sayign tht if somehtign happen to me letyou know .
andand , my birthday , you given me a great fun and memorable day ,
i am so touch somehow seriously .
there is more too .
wo xhen de henzhen xin ni {:

then , avain .
i knew you through xueli , that night , "ringring" icecream for sell .
"faster come and buy ."
you're like supermen luhs , so fast uhs , jump here and there de .
then , blah blah blah .
yeah , your care , i shi zhi dao de ,.
i'm sorry to hurt you .

hongming ,
well , hmm , i rmb that day i was sick !
you gave me th "fated to love you" vcd and even medicine .
noone did this to me , i was so touch luhs .
rmb tht day we went pasir ris park play ?
i fall down on th roller blade , your care touch my heart bahs .
nothing can express that moment of time .
and rmb we went to th och ?
waled th back door ?
i almost fall , you held my hand .
if not i realy dunnoe hwt happen le lah.
you pei me go home most of th time to keep me accomapany .
and loads ............

winnie ,
like i had said in th previous long post le .

well , i had said all of you people out le bahs.
your care and loves i do sence it .
it is irreplaceable in my heart .
however , this friendship had go down th drain .
you guys diasspoint me , so am i ?
you ppl hate me , seriosuly i hate you ppl too .
you ppl are way too much in saying those word and doing those act .

however , i never forget th time we spend tgt .
icecream , chalet { escape , cycle , ton , beer } {:
then , east coast park , pasir ris park , my hse . wild wild wet , and more ..
those day , is so enjoyable .
but now turn into dust ....

a friendship that turn into ash , and now turn into dust.

#338 : advance letter for winnie tan {:

2008-10-12T13:56:00.002+08:00

well , happy 23mth anniversary in advance of 1 day .
i dont know if you're able to read it anot .
well i still wanna write it out bahs .

we knew each other when we're in primary school .
that time you're pri 5 and i am pri 6.
since th starting , i dont really like you , as i dont know you well .
however , you were a very sporty girl and love basketball as well as netball alot .
we met each other through a girl name xueli .

however , we get closer to each other when we slacked at blk 6 .
that time , is about end of years , yes it is .
we suddenly said let become laogong and laopo .
and we hold hand yeah !{:
that period of time , you are so close to me seriosuly .
and my ah gong funeral , you came almost everyday to pei wo .
i had never forgotten those little thing .

then , there is onces i cired on th train , and she helped me to say you fainted at home .
well , we all know what really happened , isn't it ?
but yet you help me to cover th lies .

then , i was promoter to sec 1 .
we still met each as usual .
then , we shared our joy and sorrow tgt .
rmb th day we both in lollipop in library ?
and we took neoprint tgt . i ejoyed that day seriously .

rmb our first valentine day ?
we celebrated at blk 205 playground .
tgt we gaze th star and you got ants bitten , rmb ?
we both went home at about 9.30pm .

as time passes . we drifted apart .
and soon , you became sort of 'ahlian' .
you changed alot , so fast you know .
suddenly you wasnt th girl i once knew .
you became so naughty and attiutude i was so shock !

well , rmb th night ?
you cried on th phone when i dismissed from work ?
i met up xiao j , tgt we chiong our way down blk 6 to look for you yea .
i am sorry that i dint manage to talk to you much .
but i do hope you sence th care i had for you .
i am so worried about you .
i even spent 3 or 4 pages of msg each time to console you , till i am out of words .

yeah , a years passes so fast again .
you had been promoter to fajar sec .
and now sec 1 while i sec 2 .
we met up almost everyday in th morning .
rmb th certificant whereby i wrote i am gonna be with you forver ?
every words i said, i might not rmb , but is from th bottom of my heart.
then , day by day , your attitude and maybe mine too , causing us to separate .

rmb , th day i shout at you ?
then you straighaway walk off ?
not even picking up my call or tell me where you going .
yeazh , i am angry , so are you ?
i am worried about you too .
and you said your frend had some taiji bahs .

since then , we both arent close .
we quarrel over and over again .
yeahh , drifted apart more and more .

but , rmb , that day you said you wanna stay over at my hse ?
yeah , those day .
dont know weather you got cry anot lehs .
btu i sence you crying at th midnight .
i am sorry that i didnt take care of you well enough .
supposed we go church on a sat that day.
but , i am so sick .
you came home with pkt of milo , it show me how much both of you care about me .

we might be quarreling non-stop .
and hatred , backstabbing, gosipe going on .
but , deep in my heart , i had never forget you ppl care for me .

after all this that had happened ,
i said we might not be friend anymore .
but you give me th feeling of persevrance in this friendship .
you wanna hold on . i really appreciated it alot.
but , sometime , i wondered , maybe let seperate for a period of time will be good for all of us bahs .
so we can reflect what we did wrong .
and true friendship dont come so easy . so it dont just be gone like this . isn't it ?
a true friendhsip went through all thick and thin tgt .
after fight , go shopping tgt , isn'it ?
i hadnt gave up this friendship . just we bth need time to adapt ya .

now is just th 23mth .
i hope by 24mth , our 2 year anniversary , we shall be close tgt le bahs ?
time heals everything and changes it .
no matter how ard th future path will be for you ,
i hope you will pull through ya .
jiayou , you hasnt lost a me yet {:

last , happy anniversary.

#337 : to be sad or to be happy ?

2008-10-12T13:35:00.002+08:00

currently : still pirvate blog , listening to anjing {:

let start from ytd post .
satursday , 111008 .
yeah , woke up at 12+ then went to teckwhye with mama and papa at 2+
was freaking fed up with papa luhs . everything also got comment .! -.-
heck care him! ><
pei mama make spec , makan and went to ah ma hse .
was feeling extreme tired and sick luhs!

about 6 ? walked to sheng siong .
hahas , have a great shop ?
i bought th flour to bake 'huatkuey' !
then i bought 1 vodka 2 breezes {:
got my room hourse phone {:
yeah , cab home at about 9 + ! :D

woah , i was extremely happy as someone msg me luhs ! {:
not th one i love of course .
but th one that i thought he was still angry with me over some matter .
well . he said , hey , actually i wanna tell you , i long ago not angry with you le .
then was like , woah woah ! hyper uhs ! :DDDD
thanks alot i really appreciate it .

then , half way throught , someone ask me wha i like about love .
then i say nth good at all .
surpirsingly , his reply was so great .
wait ar , i go check .......
he said " i just like de feeling to be loved and loving her {: when alone with de person eu really love and ... lors . hahas . and eu will hv someone to share ur joy and sadness wit"
i guess , this is why ppl wanna have stead bahs .
and so i ask im th definiton of love .
he said " a feeling shared between 2 personbs which are more than just friend friend relationships "
i am so impressed with his answer bahs .
he give me a sence that , he is very serious in relationship .

hmm , yeah , i bake th huatkuey , afraid it dont huat uhs !
but i success in th end ! {{{:
finally i a not born to be uselss !
cus i fail in baking cookies all that luhs !
but his huatkuey , mama ask me put th orange sugar and brown sugar causing it so sweet !
eeekkkkkkkk ! hahas !
i will improve on it de {:
more to learn ya !

today .
hehes , kana woke up by 'sme ppl'
so wne out awhile about 1hr came home again .
and i am so sleepy and tired lehs !
butbut , i guess i going out to look for aaron {:
hahahs ! :DD

well , i am still thinking what link to put actually .
and th link not only must sound nice but unqiue too :D

ohyeah , not to forget , HAPPY 1mth ANNIVERSARY to KOHWEIJIE ! {{:
hmm , dont anyhow think i like him can , ppl !
so yeah , yao ni tian tian kai xin , wo zhi dao ni ai ta uhs ! {:

andand , feel more hours to go .
tml , 131008 , 23mth anniversary with WINNIE TAN {:
yeah, i wanna say , we do went through alot of thick and thin .
i will post it another psot bahs **

andand , ppl ,, i not going answer who i like or love {:
until i am sure of it .
because my heart is still so unstable , i really dont know who th one i really love .
even if i really love th person , he alrdy got stead or someone he love le bahs .

* well , if ppl manage to read this post when it no longer pirvate ,
pls note that , whatever i post i wont delete it de .
so th post about hating ppl , friendship de , just ignore bahs .*
sorry !

#336 : I found my joy somewhere where it fills with laughter {:

2008-10-10T22:20:00.002+08:00

yeayea !
woke up t 8.30am like that .
hey , miracle can ? i dont wake up so early especially tdy no school lehs !!
first time alright !
bathe and is bout 9.30 ?
aaron ng came to my hse {:
he teach me how to play guitar lor , but i was like so blur ?
about 12 went to makan , and slack :D

came home , use com , change clothes .
about 3 pm , went lot 1 watch "painted skin" .
with gangyi and oscar !!;D
thanks for th great accompany uhs !
th show i thought is supposed to be horror .
but endedup , love story . butbut is touching de lor .
because true love , that guy doesnt even mind if his women is a demon or human .
he will continue to love th his women forever , and willign to take h reponsible for her instead .
i watch till also feel like crying actually {:

went off after that .
then went to slack alone downstair playground.
awhile went home , bath , change and went o limbang mac find sis{;
hahas , i saw aaron and irwan too {:
the mac was full of joy and laughter luhs !
thats why ia m so happy {:
i saw th kids playing th water gun , spraying around {:
then , a baby waved to me and smile ! :DDDDD
then , i saw aaron de swet smile uhs .
then th counter laughter . hahs !
and i bought two motivation poster cards {:

went one and that all ?

it's quite a joyful day today {:
as i saw th laughter in many ppl today {:
like , oscar and gangyi throwing popcorn and we have a great evil laughs ;x
then , my hse dwnstair having birthday party .
mac having birthday party too .
and nearby having malay weddin tml and tdy they having party {:
wow , such a happy day ! :D

i'll move on my life even happier .
i will change for th sake of myself .
thanks winnie for being so cherish in this relationship , i appreciate it {{;
planned to learn how to bake cookies ? hahahs ! no lah .now is bake cake and some fun stuff ! :D
then , wanna learn piano and guitar ! {:
andand , i said i wan bring joy to other ! tryign to find time and place where i can do tht too .
still got what lehs ? actually i got quite alot of plan le bahs .

now is still a pirvate blog lehs .
so can write what i like too {:
hmm , thought of accept aaron ng as stead too .
but , i scare i d0nt love him ?
i felt more like , cause he care me , then want himby my side .
which is a wrong thing ya ? i dont wanna ended up hurt him .
so i shall give myself more time to know him better too {:
jiayou mingfen!
and aaron , wo yao ni tian tian kai xin uhs !!! :DD
smile ! {:

wo hui man man xue hui yong gan de ! {:

#335 : I'll will continue to be hapy ! {:

2008-10-09T11:13:00.002+08:00

firstly , there isn't a reason for me to sto laughing and smiling just because of a NOT WORTHY friendship ! if they really treat me as friend , they wouldn't have wrote those thing . is way too much alright {: however , i'm happy that it is totally over {: not matter what they want to do or say , i shouldnt be so angry nor sad about it anymore {: mouth is their , why should i care so much lehs ? and i was wondering , what it ismy life , hy must they care so much siah ? very diaows uhs ! {: though i migt commit alot of commitment in th past , but now i had change alot . i not going to say i am perfect now , but i know myself , i am better {: andand , compare to th past , i am more mature now . i am able to handle problem slightly better . with all this that happened , i had grown up abit . and became even much more stronger ! {: i am afraid of no nuts ! {:

secondly , i wanna thanks arron ng fr th great concern . haoming korkor for being there for me . oscar for concering me too {:
andand, my sister {: thanks so much for t wonderful post ! {: touched luhs ! {:
at least i do know that even i have no friend m family is always there to support me {:
andand , some frien that dont show concern to me are those who really care {:
xiexie ni men ! :D

lastly , EXAM IS FINALLY OVER !!! :D
a strong sence of realived finally {:
today , i guess i will go out alone or a jog later with aaron {:
if i gonna have moodswing , then i shall vent it all tdy bahs {:
then after that , no more tears and unhappiness for you , siamingfen {:
since i have planned what to do for this holiday , then i guess i am half on th jouney {:
i will love myself even more de {:
andand , i will continued to smile even happier {:

jiayou le worhs , siamingfen ! :D
what is done , cant be undone .
so dont look back o th past , but look forward for th future {:
it was never too late , if you're willing to change and live ur life even better {:
noting is impossible , is just that you believe you cna anot {:
so , mingfen, ni yao jian chi xia qu {:
SMILE =)

#334 : nothing can stop what i wanna do !

2008-10-07T19:38:00.003+08:00

decided to closed down sexychocolates for th time being .
then some chibye kia know i closing down ma.
so go use th url sexychocolates .
anything lorhs .
so change to s-exychocolates , for you ppl to spam with all you want !
say i am a bitchy, fcuker or whatever ! {:

anything that suit you people !

you think all this picture done by you ppl , i will go and die ar ?
fats hope la hor ! all %$^&*()(*& !
instead , i thanks you all siah !
thanks for credit my blog and my name.
so touch bodoh ! :D
xiexieni men hor ! {;

recently sososo many thing had happen !
dn't you think so ?
especially friendship problem !
all hate me till like this .
say i backstabber !
i guess YAPCHOONHAN is th words of all .
woah , LAO DA !
not bad bodoh !
surely go around spread my secret de lor .
andand , all bvelieve your word ma . so say i backstabbing somemore lor !
want ask new reporter come write about my past ma ?
better still siah , $20 to get for free lehs .!

i will never ever turn back again .
YAPCHOONHAN , LEEHONGMING , WINNIE TAN PEH HOON , AVIAN ONG JI SIONG , TNG XUE LI , ELTON !
all this fucking chibye !

i close down blog isn't i scare you know !
is just that i dont wanna any body to read it , that all !

i no longer can be as strong as i seemed!
why must i pretend i am happy or i am fine ?
i dont wanna control my emotion anymore !

I HATE YOU PEOPLE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this moment, seriously , i felt so depressed .
i wanna drink , i wanna slash, i wanna smoke !
i just dont feel like living anymore .
i wanna go and die can !
th world seemed so scary to me as day passes !
god , pls let me know why all this happened to me ?
WHY ! why i ask a qns , i expect an ans . !
god , can you pls ans me ?
what you really want me to do ?
seriously i wanna kill myself straight la !

i see no point living lorhs !
everyday i got to pretend , i cnat tell anyone what really goes wrogn !
maybe it was all my fault all this wll .
but i guess there isn't a chance for me to chnge !

arghhhh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#333 : It was never too late , if you're willing to change over again {:

2008-10-06T23:13:00.002+08:00

started th day off by wearing spectacle for english paper 2 {:
half way through , giddy giddy uhs !
so took off th spec {:
paper start at 8am , and about 8.25am i could finish th whole paper !
too fast le lah ! so i read th passage super slow and over and over again {:
s finished th comphension at 9.05am {:
sleep again ! :D

break ....**

the math paper 1 , 1 hr paper {:
finished it 30mins , as it was so easy !
BUTBUT , i dont think i could score well .
cus i blur blur de . dun even care about checking paper .
surely alot of mistake -.x

after school meet up jiaqi .
tgt go limbang mac{:
hmm , then meet up aaron {:
then jiaqi meet up oscar, gangyi and alvin to take something {:

sorry to pangseh arron !*
thanks for th milo {{:

hmm, then gangyi left .
chitchatted all th way with th 2 guy {:
first time talk so long with oscar siah !
hhahs !

then , about 6 all went off {:

ohyes . alvin papa is definetely sort of unqiue one {:
cus he is so concern aout alvin luhs .
quite touching ! {: hahahs

then came home did soemthing .
from 8 to 10.30 .
didnt have th chance to do revision .
but just about 10min ?

skip*

keep having bad dreams .
having th fears within , and i couldnt see th sun again .
all i could see is , i am all alone in th dreams , th surrounding is so dark .
i woke up with fears and sadness .
often making me feel like crying .
hais.

well, seriously thanks you people alot .
thanks for leaving me alone , thanks for hating me so much .
thanks for scolding me and saying bad thing about me .
i appreciated it alot seriously {:
because th feeling of loneliness , let me realised more about my attitude .
and what you people said , ever single words , keep flashing on my mind .
telling me th mistakes i had made and i didnt realised it myself .
i had never know how childish and sucky i was , till you people tell me .
i'll change for myself {:
i'll never angry over a person nor having th hatred {:
everyone made mistake , and i will learn from it too {:
after all this thing that had happened ,
i had become a stronger person .
really thanks alot , i do not know how to thanks you people actually .
wo zhen de hen gan xie ni men ! :DDDD

KOKWEIJIE , sweetheart birhtday coming in 18mins time ! {:
let's sing you a birthday song bahs .
hapy birthday to you ,
happy birthday to you .
happy birthday to weijie .
happy birthday to you ! {:
CHEER*
better be hapy always alright ! :D
SMILE ! you can do it de ! jiayou ! {:

#332 : all of a sudden , felt th vex within .

2008-10-05T21:26:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 23mth ANNIVERSARY to kim BOIFRIEND ! {:
we'll last for sure ya ? {:

woke up at 10.30am today .
feeling extremely tired .
but got to wake up as i going out {:

meet jiaqi lollipop 11.30am at limbang mac {:
then help her up with her art!{:

went off back to my home , take money and went to lot 1 .
irwan said he saw me -.- he spy me !
bought math test paper and went off {:

went to teckwhye blk6 .
called zihao since he said want come find me {:
thanks ah kor !
was busy doing th math test paper .
while th spectacle wear liao see thing blur instead ?

went to cc awhile . then temple .
pei lollipop go pray pray . and i pray again {:
oh this time , is for other de uhs{:
yao ni tian tian kai xin!{:

went t find zihao korkor again {:
saw papa and mama .
chat with them awhile went off again .
hahahas , busy walking here and there .
then bought th pokercards and go blk 8 play {:

yeah, is night again .
th starts {:
hahas , i seemed so vex and emo ?
hahas. tearing paper while saying , you hate me , you really hate me , you hate me damn lot !
you love me , you dont love me "
yeah , i am crazy , and i throw th paper all aroud .
plus th poker card , throw it into th air {:
i'm sorry cleaner !

kor kor pei me go buy thing home {:
then cab home ! :D

everyday that passes ,
comfirm my love for you is so real and true .
loving you is a secret not to release .
because i guess , loving you is a bigbigbig wrong thing .
and i don't haveth courage t love you too .
furthermore , you love her .
andand , i guess perhaps you had already knew i been loving you .
somedays out there, i realised i had fall fo you like this .
is quite unbelievable bahs .
yao ni tian tian kai xin , zhuo shen me dou shi zhi de de .

#331 : the one that i want to be with {:

2008-10-04T21:01:00.002+08:00

morning , msg nuer as her pei me go buy thing {:
woke up , do this and that .
bathe and meet nuer at 12+
went lot 1 buy something , and headed home at 2+ ?

help jiaqi lollipop for her art {:
then use com till about 4+ .
went out with parents {:

went to teckwhye {:
collect my spectacle , and mama also made her new spec {:
about 1 hour later , finally can go off .
went to temple as papa wanna pray .
after that eat mifen {:
and went to th front of th temple .
then got th dont knwo what , th sound very loud !
i scare of that luhs ! ))=

went to take bus at about 7pm .
and went to ntuc buy thing {:
thought of buying vodka de . but never sell . sigh !*
then bought this and that , headed home {:

I love HIM ! -
but i dont love him .
so should i or shouldn't i ?
but th HIM love th HER .
so should i try with him or shouldnt ?
hais .
if try de hua ., regret how lehs ?

#330 : It wasnt your fault .

2008-10-03T22:27:00.002+08:00

second post of th day .

firstly , i dont think we're going to work tgt happily in future .
and , since school holiday coming soon ,
i wont have th time for blogshop too .
like what i told you , i am planning to go around bring joy to those unfortunate .
and i am working in 3 weeks time ?

secondly ,
it wasn't your fault girl .
what for i blame it on you ?
no link , isn't it ?
since th very first day , i already dont belong to this friendship .
so no point holding on too .
friend come and go , only true friend will stay , am i right ?
and true friendship dont come easily , yet went through all th thick and thin .
afterall , time changes everything .
you feel that my attitude suck , and so on .
and i got nothing much to say .
and is you people let me realised how sucky i am .
when i start to know , i am such a bitch and so annoying ,
this moment , i have my mindset .
i do not want to have friend or having th courage to love someone anymore.
from you ppl , though th word is so harsh , but i know myself even better .
seriously thanks to you people {:

and , true friendship dont end so easily .
time will prove th everything .

#329 : 我的心早已不在了。。。

2008-10-03T14:56:00.002+08:00

firstly , i thanks leon for teaching me geography ! {:
if i get distinction , treat you and renhao {:

gonna failed english for sure! {:
finish compo and letter within 45min , while many 1hr 30min .

secondly ,
i am NO longer a owner of shopshop-loves.bs.com {:
so , no longer a blogshop owner :D

thirdly ,
after exam , i might considered not going school anymore ! cheer*

fourtly ,
i will put everything aside , and mug even harder than usual ! ;D

lastly ,
i guess i might be closing down blog ?
change handphone number and off phone more nowady ! :D
i have a reason behide .{:
however , i could hardly off th phone , sigh !

yea , there is nothing more i could say , and tired of saying anything .
say i am a bigbigbig liar , say i am at fault , say i am a sucker ! {:
say i am a bitch , say i am a attitude person ! {:
say say say , say anyhing that suit you people yea ! :D
cause i dont need anyone to pity me , nor do i need a friend in order to keep myself occupied ?
hate me with all you want , say all you want , do what you want .
my life isn't worth a cents . so kill me if you want , i dont mind ;DDDDDDD
spam_spam_spam , spam my blog if you want to {:
gossipe gossipe gossipe , i dont give a damn :D
spread my secret out , is perfectly okay with me uhs ! {:
if scolding me , wanna make me angry or sad , make you people happy , why not ? {:
分真我不再意 ! (:

I am just a piece of shit [:
yeah , lets celebrate that , 我数了 .
没有任何一个人的日子，我还是会一直好好过 !

9 days , i wondered

#238 : 我爱他，他爱她，但她不爱他 ! D;

2008-10-02T19:14:00.003+08:00

wo ai de ren , bu shi wo de ai ren ?

yeah , you could hardly see me so hardworking uhs !
instead of sleeping in class today , i was using th time for geography revision ! {:
thanks so much for th guys , leon , renhao and yong jun ! :D
we were crapping but yet mugging hard tgt too {:
of course , thanks leon so much for giving us 'test' so we can memorise and learn better {:
yeah , after school , stayed back for revision {:
thanks leon for helping me buy milo ! :D
mug till about 2.15pm ? quite early uhs !
way down teckwhye find sister ;D
supposed to take my spectacle , but i see already like blur blur de lehs !
so they sent back to change th don't know what ;x

took bus 307 , bath and sleeeepppp {:
tonight gonan ton mugging uhs ?
hahahs , our plan ! :D

hey sweet♥ , be happy alright ?
dont wanna see you sad ! D;

some video to share , is cute and sweet ! {:
watch it yea !

counting down to 1o days {:

how will it be like ? i wondered.

#327 : Never had a dream come true D;

2008-09-30T21:12:00.002+08:00

happy birthday to KIM boifriend !! {:
like th special surprised ?
hahas ! see your girlfriend so thoughtful and tionxim you uhs {:
love you many many ! :D

yeah , have a fun day uhs .
thanks nuer for th accompany so much !
lovelovelove !

thanks weijie for helping me pluck out th needles ?
hahas , however , thanks winnie for trying too .
and th guy , name terry ? hhahas , i dont know .
appreciated uhs ! :DDD

lalals , that all for it ?

TAG REPLIED ! {:
to all : read through all tag le , smile ! {:
cristine : hahas , sorry yea . then give me a newlink of yours uhs ! {:
joranna! : TAKECARES !! :D
JOCELYN : link you asap ! :D
Rad : i will go check it up yea . thank alot ! {:
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done ! :D
lastly , to all muslim , selemat hari raya adilfitric .
excuse me if i spell wrong ;x !
takecares people ! {{;

#326 : When everything had become a fact . i wouldnt want to be how i use to be anymore

2008-09-28T22:30:00.002+08:00

woke up at 11am , which was a shock to mama .
as i dont wake up so "early" usually , unless i going out or whatever .

skipskipskip*

went to study with xueli , then priscalla and irwan{:
scold myself yea? i wasnt studying at all .
whats wrong with me ?
i couldnt concentrade !
all i did was blowing bubble and balloon .
if i going to fail tml chines paper , just can say i deserve it yea ! {:

thanks for sending me home uhs {:
so i didnt get a chance to be emo ? muhahhahas !

i wouldnt want to share my problem with other anymore .
been getting more and more quiet nowaday .
yea , still that noisy . but more mysterious abotu my emotion .
i might b saying my problem , but those arent bothering me .
however , smae old word , i will be strong {:

#325 : I'll be happy ! {:

2008-09-27T23:26:00.002+08:00

yea , woke up at 12+ .
then flood irwan with msg , as he said wanna accompany me go study tdy .
then he fallen aslp-.-

went out 3pm with sis to teckwhye cc .
th mac is packed with ppl , so went up to th table there .
super hot uhs .
went to make spectacle ! {:
ohyes , first time uhs ! {: excited ! {:

went temple pray , saw weijie sweetheart . {{:
went to aunt hse , see her new house {:
then went to ah ma hse {:
awhile later , decided to chiong my way down limbang mac .

reached there at about 6.55pm .
waited for irwan :D
then , i didnt study !
i was drawing uhs .
hahas . th lovely couple ! {:
thanks for th great editing , irwan :D
hahas, is nice drawing with you too , laughs ! {:

went home at 10+
yeah , hungry right now ))=
busy talking with weijie !
he wan me sing song , big bully ! =P
lalalals ~

#324 : Mingfen's ; She'll always be happy ! {: ta yi ding hui KAI XIN ! :D

2008-09-26T21:07:00.004+08:00

"....there is nothing you cannot achieve , that you need only ordinary intelligence levels tonpass most exams , and that if you build up confidence through adequate preparation, there is simply nothing to fear." - Dr David Lewis, a clinical psychologist.

chat with KOH WEI JIE last night ! {:
yeah , sweetsweetsweet heart ! {:
dont say i never write your name liao .
been talking with you this whole week , midnight call uhs !
hahas , LOVES*
counting down to anniversary ! {:
16 more day to go uhs ! {:

Happy belated birthday to SOONIE laogong ,
ytd was his birthday , i didnt know how to wish him uhs .
cause is always so hard to contact him ! ))=

happy birthday to SEAN , BingRen , & ShengThont !
th 3 birthday boys' in my class for th day ! {:
enjoy ur day yea ? :DDD

everything was just so fine with th heavy rain pour .{:
washing away my sadness uhs ! {:
so i always love raining day , sure to have bigbigbig smile ! :DDD
stomachaches again ! ))= what's wrong with you , SIAMINGFEN ?
hyper mingfen ! [:

went home , bath and take a nap .
woke up , rushed to limbang mac look up for xueli {:
yeah , weiliang was there too {:
hmm , then irwan was secretly looking at xueli uhs .
hahas , LOLS ! i didnt saw him uhs !!!
yeah , i didnt study today {:
but do my art instead .
of course , i dun plan to start .
but have an ideas of what i am going to do bahs .
well , went to see dcotor halfway , as stomachache ma .
then dotor dunno say what . give me such a bitter medicine -.-
hmm , about 7 , xueli , weiliang and priscalla went home .
saw jeff then saw irwan at last ! {:

is so great colouring that partcular darwaing [:
i was like smiling all that way , even though i am alone {:
this is th first time , i have th feeling of that piece of artpiece uhs .
is full of emotion {:

walked a bigbigbig round home .
yes , th light always shine so nice ! {:
Mingfen's , she will always and forever be happy ! :D
ta yi ding hui kai xin ! :D
wo yan lei dou xiao le , shen hai xiang ku neng ?
jiu suan shi shang xin , wo dou xue hui le , xiao zhe ku {:
I'm getting stronger ! {:
jiayou mingfen ! :D

#323 : Having an aim for life , will help you find life more meaningful {:

2008-09-25T19:59:00.002+08:00

Life , at different stage , you'll have different version {:
when you are studying as a student , you might probably aiming to pass exam .
as you grow older , your expectation changes {:
yeah , maybe it do make sence yea ! :D
andand for me , to make life be happier and meaningful s through helping other as a volunteen{:
andand , of course being able to learn piano and guitar .
after that , being able to know how to bake cookies , biscult , CAKE{; , and more ! :D
my life , i love learning new thing that is interesting for me :D
that's probably my life , so at least i see my life in a way to it :DD

schooling again .
went out with mama today , she was like talketive then suddenly so diam .
lalals, she walked kinda slow ))=

nowaday was feeling rather moody in school ?
have a strong emotion of crying for no reason luhs .
so i am like so sad luhs ! ))=
but , yet i can smile lehs . siao one uhs ! :D

thought of going canteen makan ,
but halfway saw ms jac , so i asked her about my qns :" ren sheng mu biao !"
yeah , her explanation wasnt what i expected .
cause i wasnt really statify with her answer lehs !
but as she continued to say , she have a point bahs {:
appriecated ! {:

while going d&t , mr lim walked pass me then asked me some qns .
kinda sensitive , if this continue i surely going cry again ?
hahas , but i rmb one sentence from him , very funny ones.
" mingfen , dont think that way "
saying as if i am like so great luhs , hahas .
MR LIM MY , thanks alot luhs ! {:
sort of comfort for me {:

after school , buy something go home eat .
then bathe , take about 10min nap?
then chiong my way to limbang mac .
yeah , weiliang , xueli , jeff and gualbert was there {:
heyhey , where is Irwan ? cant see him ?!?!
hahas . yeah , i manage to mug finish whole science chpt through my sleepyness ! [:
nice ones , mingfen !
butbut , haven really go memorise , however , i did my own notes :D

thanks jeff so much yea !
thanks for th accompany .
appreciated it alot .

#322 : What is life all about ? ren sheng mu biao {:

2008-09-24T21:40:00.002+08:00

went to school with stomach cramp th whole day ! ))=
th rains poured heavily before i reached th school .
instead of ranning or take out umberella, i walked in th rain {:
yes, let th wind blow away my sadness ,
and th rain to wash away my tears :DDDDD

went to cabin with choonhan and jeanette today ! {{:
then then , yea , did got th chance to "chat" with choonhan {:
yeah , and thank so much so that session .
as though it might be so hurtful to hear those unpleasant words ,
but at least i finally know the reason why ! {:
however , i am still not statify with th answer .
i mean , i would like "her" to be there too .
because she was th main key for my answer .
yea , looking forward to it .
got to ask ms jac , REN SHENG MU BIAO ! " :DDDDDDDs
waiting for my answer , muhahahha !
pei jeanatte in th counselling cabin from 11.20 to 12.35pm {:
first time i went so long yea . but is still quite great luhs {:

jeanette wanna come my hse explore after school {:
so bring her come my hse .
hahas , hope she enjoyed?
then bring her go limbang meet xueli and jeff {:
then , jeanette got to go home .
send to busstop {: ehs , she should be okay with it right ? {:

couldnt concentrade on mugging ! ))=
however , i got Ir Wan numbers {:
the guys i saw in th mcdonald working since 9876789years .
he's a malay , however cute in someway ? hahas ! {:

xueli went home at about 8 ? as well as goalbert ?
then left me alone ))=
jeff supposed to teach me science de ar , but he got future yet hopeless ;x
hahs, nevermind let him go work better {:
ohyes , saw oscar in th mac , and i didnt know is him actually .
he just look familiar to me that all . hahas ;x
jeff said tmr teach me science {;
so he took back my science textbook ! :D
he'll be my tutor ! if i fail science i will chase after him ! ;x
yeah , went home at 9.05 pm {:

Sia Ming Fen , jiayou for th everything yea ! {{:
since you knwo what you have gone wrongs , then change it {:
change it for my sake :D promises to myself :D
I'll never be angry so easily nor sad .{:
learning to be stronger and optimistic ! :D
yeah, you can do it , Mingfen ! {: